Hi All,

This is my first blog ever. I'm not exactly sure how they are supposed to work, but I do know they are a place to write down whatever you want.

W'm using this one as a test blog, and a place to put down my thoughts and feelings about my life, my recovery, my beliefs, and how I stay clean and in touch with God on a day to day basis.

Right now, I'm crying because something is going on with my oldest daughter (amanda). I posted about it in women in recovery, but the jist of it is, she called my other daughter (toni)hysterical and panicky, begging toni to come and get her as fast as she can, but don't tell mom and dad. and that she's hurt in the heart. I sure it has something to do with her and her fiance, and my head is taking me in all directions. I wish she would have called me to come get her. Toni told me she would call me as soon as she got Amanda, and try to talk amanda into coming to my house, but the waiting is driving me crazy. And, Toni isn't very reliable when it comes to following through on phone calls. It's been about a 1/2 hour since Toni called me, I don't know how long to wait before I call Amanda myself. Toni doesn't have a cell phone, so I can't call her.

My youngest son, is a help, he keeps coming in
and climbing on the bed, and telling me he loves me. He's a good kid, all my kids are pretty good for the most part, they make me worry. Well, I should say Toni's good, but she does the wrong things (she's actively using).

Please keep us in your prayers. I need to go and pray for my daughter and for that phone call.

Laurie