http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/nallabelle/ Online Support Groups for Addicts, Alcoholics and their Family, Friends and Loved Ones. Thu, 16 Feb 2012 07:03:06 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/nallabelle/ http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/nallabelle/1937-my-first-blog.html Tue, 10 Mar 2009 19:54:15 GMT Well I guess I am going to use this as like a diary for the whole world to read or whoever cares. Isnt that what a blog is? I have come to the realization that I have become numb to drugs. Numb to... Well I guess I am going to use this as like a diary for the whole world to read or whoever cares. Isnt that what a blog is?
I have come to the realization that I have become numb to drugs. Numb to their power and what they have done to my life. I was never a huge user as far as most people's standards are concerned. I am having the hardest time though giving this up. I really have no excuse. Im just not a strong person and that is the reality of it. I have been enabled by my family. People walk on eggshells around me and rightfully so.
I see so many people on here and at NA meetings who have overcome so much more than I have endured in my life and yet I cant seem to kick this addiction with so much of the rest of my life just the way that it should be. I believe the pills have changed me. I am angry now, short tempered, moody and I have done things I never in a million years thought I would do to get drugs. This is a sickening disease and I wish it wasnt my life.
I have lost all motivations and desires. I really dont care about anything anymore. ]]> Nallabelle http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/nallabelle/1937-my-first-blog.html