Spring is in the air!
Posted 04-10-2008 at 01:24 PM by mizserenity
Ah, finally a day when you feel like the long, gray winter is a distant memory. A gloriously sunny, warm day. The kind of day you want to go on and on and on.
I was out in the backyard with my 3 y.o., looking at our wooden swingset and annoyed that AH hasn't re-stained it. And then I realize - WHY am I expecting HIM to do anything? I can do it. It'll be tricky because I'll need to watch the kids while I do it, but I can go to a hardware store, ask about the materials I need and JUST DO IT. I can't wait for him anymore, he isn't going to magically start doing all those things I expect a "husband" to do.
And I think I'm finally getting sick of the thickness I've allowed to creep around my middle during many "I don't give a ****" late-night snacking events. I look at my 40 year old self and know I can look better - not for anyone else but for ME.
I am still trying to find time to do the paperwork when it dawned on me - I can set my alarm for 5:30 AM and try to do it in the early morning hours, before the kids wake up. I am not a morning person by nature... but WHAT IF my "ME TIME" were in the morning and not crammed in at night and robbing me of my precious sleep? I bet I'd be a LOT more productive if I tried to do it. Even one day a week, just to try it and see if I can. It would probably help me go to bed earlier, too. There is just NO excuse for me to be up until 1 AM every night.
I feel like these things are no-brainers for so many people, but I've been living so long blaming someone else for all that is scattered, unfinished and unorganized in my life.
There is something about a spring day that just makes all these things look attainable and not so damn daunting... Let's see if I can back it up with action.
I was out in the backyard with my 3 y.o., looking at our wooden swingset and annoyed that AH hasn't re-stained it. And then I realize - WHY am I expecting HIM to do anything? I can do it. It'll be tricky because I'll need to watch the kids while I do it, but I can go to a hardware store, ask about the materials I need and JUST DO IT. I can't wait for him anymore, he isn't going to magically start doing all those things I expect a "husband" to do.
And I think I'm finally getting sick of the thickness I've allowed to creep around my middle during many "I don't give a ****" late-night snacking events. I look at my 40 year old self and know I can look better - not for anyone else but for ME.
I am still trying to find time to do the paperwork when it dawned on me - I can set my alarm for 5:30 AM and try to do it in the early morning hours, before the kids wake up. I am not a morning person by nature... but WHAT IF my "ME TIME" were in the morning and not crammed in at night and robbing me of my precious sleep? I bet I'd be a LOT more productive if I tried to do it. Even one day a week, just to try it and see if I can. It would probably help me go to bed earlier, too. There is just NO excuse for me to be up until 1 AM every night.
I feel like these things are no-brainers for so many people, but I've been living so long blaming someone else for all that is scattered, unfinished and unorganized in my life.
There is something about a spring day that just makes all these things look attainable and not so damn daunting... Let's see if I can back it up with action.
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Sounds like you've had a great epiphany! You CAN do things BY yourself (you go girl - stain that fence). You can do things FOR yourself. I'm naturally a morning person and I LOVE my "me time", even though it is way too short. I go for a walk and just reflect on everything, then come here for my daily dose of sobriety training. Spring is a time for new beginnings - enjoy!Posted 04-11-2008 at 04:36 AM by ROFL
