The Ring
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Congrats on 5 weeks Matty!
As far as relations/relationships with other people--I understand where you are coming from. I think the "ring" is a great idea. I would wait...save it for that "special" someone. In the meantime--just focus on sobriety and take everything else "one day at a time".
Posted 08-09-2008 at 12:14 PM by ANGELINA243
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Yeah, one day at a time... That's what's been working. Thanks Angie
Posted 08-09-2008 at 01:42 PM by MCake -
I love you Matty....Keep the faith...Im trying to hope there is real love out there!!!
xoxoxox RachPosted 08-10-2008 at 12:14 PM by lostgirl89 -
Jeez Matt,
Now you've got me bawling too. You know I feel that same loneliness, and it hurts like hell! I HATE IT, HATE IT, HATE IT! I'm sorry you're feeling it too. One of those sobriety things, you know, "feeling" again. That's one thing I would have preferred not to feel however!
As for the ring, what it means to you is something so special I don't think you should give it away until you are 100% sure, and maybe not even then. I've been through enough to know that maybe you can never be 100% sure of love. Sorry if I'm being a bit cynical, just feeling a little emotional as well.
I do hope you find your one true love, just as much as I hope myself and all of our lonely friends here do. If we never do, though, you'll always have me. Maybe not quite as good as the real thing, but I'm here for you and always will be. But, then again, I don't think I have to remind you of that. xxx
Love always,
SP
Posted 08-10-2008 at 09:29 PM by butterfly19 -
I guess we are all on the same page here.
I was a good girl before my addiction. Relationships and sex meant what they were suppose to mean. Between my addiciton, being hurt back then, and my weight. I have no interest in any kind of contact in that way with anyone right now.
As for men. You already know I have some serious issues with that. Sex freaks me out anymore. It means nothing. When you cross a certain line it gets that way.
I have become so shallow as far as any relationships with men go.
If I cant get nothing out of them. No interest. Its a sick trait I have carried with me from my addiction.
And I am pretty much stick and move. Do what you gotta do and bounce. I am only with it to get something and thats sad.
I get very lonely too. Maybe why I dream about old exes sometimes. Ones I had years with before my addiction. When my heart was in it. I miss having someone to hold me. I use to love laying my head on their chest in comfortable sweet silence.
I am scared I will never be able to feel that way again.
As far as my other side. My appearance has got me very insecure with that. I tend to like younger very pretty girls. And I just dont want to feel uncomfortable because of my own hang ups.
I feel uncomfortable when I get compliments. Guys just make me sick anymore. And theres nothing wrong woth them mostly. Its just the experiences I have had that shuts me down.
I hope I dont feel this way forever. It will make for a very lonely life.
It is natural to feel what your feeling Matty. You keep that ring for now. And only when your ready and find the right person. Do you give it away.
First and foremost. Focus on yourself. Getting better.
Your such a great person. Whoever does get that ring. Is one lucky person to have you.
Sorry I rambled at the beginning of this post. But I have been thinking the same stuff lately.
Maybe start slow with hangin with some friends or family first. Then move on to lettign others in. Anyone who meets you will love you like we do.Posted 08-11-2008 at 01:18 AM by Aysha - Yes, whoever gets that ring will be VERY lucky and BLESSED to have you! You are loved!Posted 08-11-2008 at 05:35 AM by ROFL
