hmmm So in the past two daysI have had three dreams all in which I end up with my heart broken! What the freak?
In the first one my huzzy broke up with me (we werent married in the dream) and of course that tore me up.
One of the dreams last night I was dating an ex-boyfriend (my first boyfriend actually) and he dumped me too! Ughhh got to re-expirience that pain all over again..YEAH!
The other dream I was feeling overwhelmed and wanted to get away so a group of friends and...

Ive decided to try and make this a regular posting avenue rather than say oh once a month.

Today was good I went shopping with my sister and then we went for a walk, 3 miles! That makes skipping pilates today all right in my book. It was sunny and warm. I started reading "Beyond the Influence" last night, didnt get far but it seems very interesting.

So I have recently signed up for this photography class. I have done all the required reading for the 1st section...

Today sucks and here is a list of why....

I miss my mom terribly..she has been gone for over 3 years..I want her to hold me, I want to hear her voice.

I want to feel loved..by those who love me..consistently. not here or there but ALWAYS. In all actions.. in all words I want to be able to rely and take comfort in the fact that their love for me is not sporadic.

I wish my sister would open up to me more. i so desire to be closer to her but I feel like...

Yeah, so its late and I am up once again and I wanted to write but didn't know about what so I didn't know where to put it in the forums hahah So here goes....

hmm the life of a sober person...

I can say that I am consistently more happy right now than I have been in years. Its great! Im not saying I dont have my moments but for the most part I am a pretty positive person. I was that way before I started drinking so I am glad to get that aspect of my personality back.Sometimes...

For almost a year before I stopped drinking which was recently, I read a lot of self help/spiritual books about how to make my life better. I thought if I gained enough knowledge about the right sort of way to be that it would make getting sober (which is what I wanted), easier. I read The Four Agreements, Loving What Is, Self Matters, The Art of Happiness, while these books may now be of use to me they were of no consequence while I was drinking. I took in the information but I couldn't put it...