http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/lugnut/ Online Support Groups for Addicts, Alcoholics and their Family, Friends and Loved Ones. Mon, 23 Nov 2009 13:02:52 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/lugnut/ http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/lugnut/1617-coming-up-30-days.html Fri, 02 Jan 2009 01:42:08 GMT January 1st 2009, Well Here I am. One week from 30 days. I did not count the days but I know when I stopped. Not going to lie and say I dont think about my DOC almost everyday. I have found some... January 1st 2009,
Well Here I am. One week from 30 days. I did not count the days but I know when I stopped. Not going to lie and say I dont think about my DOC almost everyday. I have found some solstice in making a schedule for my day. Making it a lot less easier for my mind to wonder.
Proud of what I have done thus far but still feeling allot of guilt for what I have done in the past. Not only to my own body but to my family. Granted I never hit bottom I am glad I did not wait that long. Does not make me better or worse off than any other addict though! We are all in this together.
The thing I find the hardest is not really having any friends.. It is easy in one aspect as I dont have any using buddies. (never really did anyway). Bad in the way I have no one to turn to besides my wife and she does not deserve the blunt of my addiction and she really does not understand nor really wants to and I dont blame her. Gotta blame me.
I can only hope and pray this is my "last time" I am not promising anything to myself for tomorrow just today. as that is all I have control over.
Here is to a new year not filled with resolutions but actions. ]]> lugnut http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/lugnut/1617-coming-up-30-days.html