so i have been thinking
and everything is working out let alone this will be a a battle for me
from where i have been to where i am going i only wish some would understand i dont think they know how bad i hurt
when they called me an addict it hurts but i know i am because life is hell without my sweetest sin! we all came so far to meet in one place broken hearts in the saftest place love like you could lose it all but never give up even when you fall!

she had a dream when she woke up'
seeing her face in the mirror
the blood on the floor and the hate in his eyes
she didnt even know
that she was beautiful
she did so much
toxians in her brain
metally and physcially disordering pain
she fought intill
she broke down to cry
though of killing her self so she could fly
she had this dream when she woke up
she drempt of pain and she drempt of tears
but she never...

so i woke up today a strong person and i thought everything would be looking up i am starting to lose my fake friends because being sober is somthing they dont support but screw them. i get a call my parents are fighting hard core let alone i hate drama . if all else fails i dont know what i can do i almost relapased last night but i forced myself to sleep these witdraws are driving me insane . ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i am trying my hardest it been a while since i stoped the opiods and the meth...

there is always that one day when you wake up and say to urself it time for a change. Time to be a strong person and time to be the better person than you were. I have battled many things in my life my real mom barley talks to me and the people i do have to talk to are kinda of judgemental. So this is were i look for people with the same problems , same view points and smae goals to help me out . you can only go as far as you push and i am pusing all the way! when i think about all i have and all...