Castle in the Air
[I] "If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put the foundations under them” –Thoreau [/I]
Nick is over at the new house today as it is “Inspection” day. Must be a guy thing; he seems really excited about it.
Telling me things about the foundation, what kind of wiring it has, and what the pipes are made out of, and how thick certain walls are, etc.
I’m smiling; just thinking about how much all this means to him, and how proud he is.
Then I started thinking about the foundation of structures: buildings, relationships, and self.
We each have to have a solid understanding of ourselves; our character; backed by a set of principles, and a moral code of ethics that we hold to. I think that is our foundation. It is what helps us through the storms in life, and gives us confidence that we will be able to withstand whatever comes our way.
I know Nick’s life is based on a strong foundation. But the addiction to cocaine took its toll on him because he compromised those things that he believed in for a time there.
He is working on dealing with all that now; accepting the damage that was caused during the storm, analyzing the foundation, repairing the cracks. (Thankfully most of the outward damage was handled by his dad...but that is for another day).
None of this scares me because I know he will get there. I know that when he is done; he will be able to feel that deep inner strength within himself again. I have no doubts about Nicks character; he is rock solid. Now he just has to believe it himself.
But what about me? Are there cracks in my foundation? Am I strong enough to stand up to whatever may come along as I journey through life with him? Have I compromised my principles? Am I setting myself up to be less than what I have always expected?
Im not going to be single anymore ! That alone brings tremendous change to the way I view the future.
We are starting this new life together, and I love him so much; I think I could easily get lost in that and drift happily away…. but what if I drift so far that I wake up and don’t like myself anymore? What if Nick doesn’t like me anymore? What if someday Im trapped watching Spongebob all day with a small child who mushes up the bathsoap for fun?
I guess I need to start my own “inspection” process just be be certain I'm up to task.
But for now I just have to CHILL.
I have an issue with Bats…. I had a special request that the house be inspected to make sure there are no bats, and that no bats can get into the house. Probably extreme…. But I don’t like bats.
Im thinking of putting up a sign:
OLD BATS NOT WELCOME !
Martha Stewart says they are good; they eat lots of bugs, and she encourages people to build bat houses. Oh Martha….. Ive nothing against them; but they scare me and I don’t want one ever loose in the house. I had this picture of an old bat perched way up in the roof somewhere…. But then Nick told me they don’t perch like a bird, they actually hang upside down!
He tells me the pest control people will be out in the afternoon, and he thinks I should ditch work and be part of this exciting experience.
Oh what the heck….. maybe it would be good for me to learn about the inner workings of a house. Nicks been showing me things from the specks and the blueprints for days… so maybe its time I learn the mechanics.
So off I go to learn not only 'where the water comes from' but all about the pipes that carry the water.
Nick is over at the new house today as it is “Inspection” day. Must be a guy thing; he seems really excited about it.
Telling me things about the foundation, what kind of wiring it has, and what the pipes are made out of, and how thick certain walls are, etc.
I’m smiling; just thinking about how much all this means to him, and how proud he is.
Then I started thinking about the foundation of structures: buildings, relationships, and self.
We each have to have a solid understanding of ourselves; our character; backed by a set of principles, and a moral code of ethics that we hold to. I think that is our foundation. It is what helps us through the storms in life, and gives us confidence that we will be able to withstand whatever comes our way.
I know Nick’s life is based on a strong foundation. But the addiction to cocaine took its toll on him because he compromised those things that he believed in for a time there.
He is working on dealing with all that now; accepting the damage that was caused during the storm, analyzing the foundation, repairing the cracks. (Thankfully most of the outward damage was handled by his dad...but that is for another day).
None of this scares me because I know he will get there. I know that when he is done; he will be able to feel that deep inner strength within himself again. I have no doubts about Nicks character; he is rock solid. Now he just has to believe it himself.
But what about me? Are there cracks in my foundation? Am I strong enough to stand up to whatever may come along as I journey through life with him? Have I compromised my principles? Am I setting myself up to be less than what I have always expected?
Im not going to be single anymore ! That alone brings tremendous change to the way I view the future.
We are starting this new life together, and I love him so much; I think I could easily get lost in that and drift happily away…. but what if I drift so far that I wake up and don’t like myself anymore? What if Nick doesn’t like me anymore? What if someday Im trapped watching Spongebob all day with a small child who mushes up the bathsoap for fun?
I guess I need to start my own “inspection” process just be be certain I'm up to task.
But for now I just have to CHILL.
I have an issue with Bats…. I had a special request that the house be inspected to make sure there are no bats, and that no bats can get into the house. Probably extreme…. But I don’t like bats.
Im thinking of putting up a sign:
OLD BATS NOT WELCOME !
Martha Stewart says they are good; they eat lots of bugs, and she encourages people to build bat houses. Oh Martha….. Ive nothing against them; but they scare me and I don’t want one ever loose in the house. I had this picture of an old bat perched way up in the roof somewhere…. But then Nick told me they don’t perch like a bird, they actually hang upside down!
He tells me the pest control people will be out in the afternoon, and he thinks I should ditch work and be part of this exciting experience.
Oh what the heck….. maybe it would be good for me to learn about the inner workings of a house. Nicks been showing me things from the specks and the blueprints for days… so maybe its time I learn the mechanics.
So off I go to learn not only 'where the water comes from' but all about the pipes that carry the water.
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