All this anxiety
Posted 02-13-2008 at 03:57 PM by jerect
I have all this anxiety tonight.
I guess I'm trying to digest everything that has happend to me in the last several months. Finding pills in my supposedly Recovering Husbands possesion. My husband lying to me time and time again swearing that he wasn't using them. Me turning into a codependant lunatic making our already fragil marriage crack.
I have at least admitted to myself that I'm no longer in control. I have to get control back over my life. What my husband does is what my husband is going to do.
He finally admitted to using last week. We have an appointment with a therapist that specializes in substance abuse. After many emotionaly draining weeks I finally have a glimps of optimism. I'm not getting my hope up too much though because my AH is very week and easily influenced to his environment. Drugs are readily available where he works. But right now I can't think about that..
Maybe the shrink can give me some anti depressents.. anything to give me some relief from my emotions.
I guess I'm trying to digest everything that has happend to me in the last several months. Finding pills in my supposedly Recovering Husbands possesion. My husband lying to me time and time again swearing that he wasn't using them. Me turning into a codependant lunatic making our already fragil marriage crack.
I have at least admitted to myself that I'm no longer in control. I have to get control back over my life. What my husband does is what my husband is going to do.
He finally admitted to using last week. We have an appointment with a therapist that specializes in substance abuse. After many emotionaly draining weeks I finally have a glimps of optimism. I'm not getting my hope up too much though because my AH is very week and easily influenced to his environment. Drugs are readily available where he works. But right now I can't think about that..
Maybe the shrink can give me some anti depressents.. anything to give me some relief from my emotions.
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Hi - I'm not sure if you attend Al-Anon or Nar-Anon but it may help you to keep the focus on you and your own recovery - in that you are powerless over people, places and things. I'm sorry that you're struggling with your husband's drug use, and hope that the counsellor is able to help you both through this difficult time. Hugs.Posted 02-14-2008 at 07:17 AM by Rowan
