rock bottom?

i think (and hope) i've finally hit rock bottom. if i am correct a very hard road lies ahead of me. opening up to others, accepting reality, dealing with anger and sadness in healthy ways etc..
i'm an alcoholic. big time. i can't go 15 seconds without thinking about a drink. on the same token, i can't go 15 seconds without feeling a sharp sting of shame and guilt for all the people that i've hurt by being a drunk. it sort of feels like even if i get sober and stay that way alcohol will still have won. i can't imagine there ever coming a day when staying sober isn't a 24 hour struggle. i've accepted that i'm an alcoholic and that a life of sobriety is going to very dificult. i just hope that one it won't be so hard. from everything that i've heard and read it does get easier with time. i unfortunately am a very inpatient person. i'm so tired of this disease. it's destroying everything around me not to mention, well, me. i'm a slave and alcohol is my master. this can't be right.