I am SUCH a good "liar"...

I posted yesterday that I had been doing so well detaching myself {yet again!} from the problems our family has been having with my Dad now for over 4-years...but I "lied".

I don't think I really detached, persay, but just put it in the back of my mind since I seem to have suddenly had so much on my plate as of lately.

Yesterday hubby and I stopped at my parents house to visit for awhile and set up the new telephone I had gotten them for Christmas.
It was still wrapped up and all because my Mom knew it would be stressful for my Dad since he does not "accept" even the slightest bit of change...even a new telephone!

We began setting up the new one and he fretted, paced the floors, tried to talk us out of it and even began sobbing as we tried to convince him it was OK.
He even began to show some signs of anger later on as I was trying to show him how easy it was to use, but I quickly did my best to distract him out of it.

I wish it was as easy to distract my own mind from seeing all that.
I wouldn't say that it was on my mind as constant as it usually is after we visit but I kept having little "flashbacks" late into the evening and I wondered if he was still fretting about the new phone and worrying Mom.

So...It is even just the little things like a visit and the gift of a new [and much needed] phone that are turned into stressful events that don't seem to go away as quickly they should.
I know I should tell myself this is the way it is and go on, but sometimes that is hard.

I probably won't visit again now for a long while like I usually do when something upsetting like this happens. It's a shame too because my Mom really enjoys having the company.

~Jane