Today I did not think about alcohol at all (or if I did, I can't remember it). There were some stressful moments of the day, but I never thought about drinking to dull the pain, etc. I knew I was going to yoga tonight. I have not been in 3 weeks or so and NEEDED to go. So I got there, at first was tense, but very quickly got into the class and felt like a million times better by the end. After coming out of class, the last thing you feel like doing is drinking. NOTE TO SELF: Go to yoga more...

I'm okay, but really, really tired. Some days are just like that. I had a craving for some cold white wine after work today. The craving was fairly bad for a little while, but I rode it out and was okay. Today was a little harder than yesterday. Hoping Day 4 will be a little easier. So... not much else, just need some sleep after a busy day.

I've decided to discontinue writing in my paper journal -- it's so much easier to type. Had a very good day with youngest son -- to the doctor for his physical, the shoe store, McDonald's for lunch and the toy store for a little surprise for him for being so brave (he had to have blood taken, poor little guy!) I am doing fine. No cravings for any alcohol, then again it's rare for me to have cravings in the middle of the day. I'm just waiting for that first craving to hit, and it will, and just...

On my new Day 1, there were delightful fireworks in the sky near our house. At first I was surprised, since 4th of July is still a ways off. But then I decided to take it as a sign, a good one, for my future and the day I picked to do this (well, again). Maybe it's for real this time. It felt great watching the fireworks totally sober and feeling like myself. Nice end to the day.

Well, it's my son's birthday today. 6 years ago today[FONT="Comic Sans MS"][/FONT] I was giving birth. Today, hopefully a new start for me. Here's what I wrote in my journal (paper one):[FONT="Comic Sans MS"][/FONT]

Hard to believe it has taken me so long. So many false starts. Could this be it? Could that be my last hangover EVER? And wouldn't that be awesome? Hangovers are the worst. I think it's nature's way of telling us not to do that again. Why...