Day 9
Posted 04-08-2009 at 01:45 PM by Helene
Ok, here I am on day 9. Today is exceedingly difficult for me. I do not have to work today, the sun is shining and I want a drink. There is a possiblity of receiving some very good news tomorrow, but I have to wait until then to find out. I am completely distracted. Cannot sit still and concentrate on anything. The addict in me keeps telling me how much a drink would help and quieten me down. It has been 9 days, maybe I am over it?
But no, I am an alcoholic and a recovered drug addict. I will always be an alcoholic. And I must not drink. Just for today.
Instead I am sticking to this site and reading as much as possible. Let me just make it to day 10 and then see how tomorrow goes. Perhaps I will get my good news, perhaps I won't If I don't, all is not lost. I must focus on that. Everything is in my HP's hands, the only thing I need to worry about is keeping my self sober so that I can deal with whatever I am handed. Man, this is hard. :praying
But no, I am an alcoholic and a recovered drug addict. I will always be an alcoholic. And I must not drink. Just for today.
Instead I am sticking to this site and reading as much as possible. Let me just make it to day 10 and then see how tomorrow goes. Perhaps I will get my good news, perhaps I won't If I don't, all is not lost. I must focus on that. Everything is in my HP's hands, the only thing I need to worry about is keeping my self sober so that I can deal with whatever I am handed. Man, this is hard. :praying
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