Yesterday was 60 days!! Woooo Hooo for me!!

I'm starting to like this! So much so I think I'll tackle exercise and losing weight next. (Maybe).

I went to a neighborhood girl's party last night. I think everyone else was drinking except for me. In the past I would have used that as a perfect opportunity to get smashed. But last night, I not only did not drink, I didn't want a drink while it was all around me.

My armor is to remember what I was like...

50 days tomorrow. Never in my 45 years would I have thought I would be 50 days sober. I'm not sure what else to write other than that.

I am so afraid that I will have a weak moment. That I'll forget one day about how bad I had become. That I'll forget that the very next time I drink, if I ever did, would take me right back to the exact same place I was the day before I quit.

I'm afraid to really acknowledge that tomorrow will be 50 days. Could I think 50 is...

45 days yesterday. Some days I love the number and know exactly where I am. Some days the number of days sneak up on me. Some days I don't care about the number- it's not really what the prize is.

Some days I almost forget that I'm an alcoholic and can never have a drink ever again. Some days it's in my face and I can't get away from it.

Some days are good. A total celebration of how far I've already come. Some days are a waste and that little voice inside...

Ever thought things were going great, just like you planned, and then something sideswiped you and took you down? Me too. 38 days sober and doing GREAT! Typical stuff but my life's on the right track, no alcohol. Everyone should be so proud of me for what I've accomplished, right?

In two days, three people, including my 15 Year old daughter, have commented that I seem to be in a "funk". Right when things are going good for me those people have the nerve to tell me I...

Today will be day 30 today. It took me at least two weeks before I realized how important it had become to count the days. At first, I didn't even care about THAT! All I wanted was my life back, my soul back, my heart back. I didn't care about how many days I had gone without drinking.

But today, I do. 30 is HUGE. It represents my willingness to try to do something, to change, to move on. I haven't made a true effort to do do anything in so long, much less something every...