http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/geekorunique/ Online Support Groups for Addicts, Alcoholics and their Family, Friends and Loved Ones. Wed, 15 Feb 2012 23:55:54 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/geekorunique/ http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/geekorunique/1601-what-year.html Sun, 28 Dec 2008 18:01:31 GMT As it comes to the end of this year I can only look back on it in astonishment. It has been probably the most important year of my life. I really do feel like I stood at a turning point but until now... As it comes to the end of this year I can only look back on it in astonishment. It has been probably the most important year of my life. I really do feel like I stood at a turning point but until now I don't believe that I have asked for his help with complete abandon. Now I am more than ready to though and I plan a day at a time to ask for Gods help for my life.

I really thought that I had it all sussed you know. That I was happy and it wasn't just because I was in a relationship. I was warned not to get with someone in the first two years but me being me thought I could do things my way. Needless to say they didn't work! I was hurt and I hurt someone too. What being on this program has taught me though is that if you hold onto resentment and guilt and fears that they can eat away at you like rust does with a car. So I let go of it all pretty quickly. Most days I'm ok. Sometimes I miss her so much it hurts. I have to believe though that if we are meant to be together then it will happen again at a better time for both of us.

So it's got to be better next year. No relationships - therefore hopefully no heartbreaking for me! ]]> geekorunique http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/geekorunique/1601-what-year.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/geekorunique/1195-blog-honestly.html Sat, 06 Sep 2008 00:48:46 GMT
I'm glad that I have joined this forum because I can blog honestly about what is going on in my life. I am on facebook, bebo etc but I don't trust people on there. Even my closest friends I think they sometimes will see what is going on in my life as gossip. I just really wanted somewhere that I could be honest and speak about what is happening in my day.

I am on nightshift at the moment so feeling a bit all over the place. I didn't manage to get to a meeting tonight because I was so tired when I woke up and had a twelve hour nightshift ahead of me. I got here though feeling so flat because I hadn't gone so I want to make sure that I get to one tomorrow night. Even if it means getting up really early I know that it keeps me spiritually well.

There is someone in my group as well that I am finding really overbearing and keep praying about it. I don't really know what to do. She is a lot older than me. I'm gay and she mentions it all the time. Says that I am "gagging" for her! I find it so embarrasing especially in front of my sponsor. I just hope and pray that something will happen to make things ok. I worry that I will be seen as a predator in the womens group! I can't really hide my sexuality. I look gay but I don't like it being mentioned all the time. I don't want to be known as the lesbian!

I just hope and pray that it will be ok.

An old friend has also recently got in touch with me and wants to speak about things that have happened in the past. I'm not on my making amends step yet though. I have emailed her and asked her to wait and I should have left it at that. But then I emailed her trying to explain my actions. Now I don't know whether she has even read it or not and it is driving me a bit mental! It wont drive me to drink though. I just have to cope with what happens. I hate myself for what I did but I hope that in time and a day at a time I will learn to forgive myself. ]]> geekorunique http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/geekorunique/1195-blog-honestly.html