I am back to day one. At a gathering this weekend I slipped up. Recently I've been waking up in the morning with the feeling that I had drank the night before. Then, I feel grateful and fantastic that I have been sober. This morning I woke up and thought my lapse had been a dream. Then, I remembered it actually happened. I am so disappointed in myself. This was a tough test of my sobriety and I failed the test. People with more wisdom than me have told me to get back up and stick with being...

It's day 28 and I feel great! It was very difficult not to succumb last Saturday. I actually threw on my jeans, shoes and a jacket to go to the gas station and get beer. Before heading out the door I prayed to God to give me the strength to keep from drinking and to somehow help me to make it through the next hour. He answered my prayer, though it felt like I was hovering over a cliff for the remainder of the evening. I made pizza and watched stand-up until I fell asleep. So, I did not drink...

I have just completed day 17 without any alcohol. That's pretty remarkable for me and is the second longest I've gone without the creature in 12 years. I'm having lots of sleep problems and anxiety at work, but I feel much clearer and much more happy. My pattern is to get falling down drunk on weekends and then to recover all week. Usually that's just in time to get sickeningly drunk Friday and Saturday. On New Year's Eve, I said "ENOUGH!" for the last time. It's been 2 and 1/2 weeks...