woke up in the tub, after blacking out, and found this on the floor. and 3 pictures in my phone.




here is what the paper says... I do nto remember writing this, but WOW--

"I gotta belive I keep waking up for soem reason! I F'in swear God. Muy history includes being up 10 days at...

OMG!!!

I can not just keep drinking

I am nto a normal drinker

SOOOOOOOOOOO - I am stopping

Day one. No hang over- that's a good start
emotionally I am a basket case, buyt that is not new

work is torture, but I have a job

I have a marathon to run on Sunday in Miami, and I am nto ready as I would lik to be....

I am just gunna allow the day to roll, be as smooth as I can, lets the waves...

I am not sure of anything

I am affraid

I had time

NOW I have none

I feel like it is no big deal, but I feel so defeated

I am tired yes full of nervous energy

I I I I I I I I I

I just need a drink.... what a wretched thing after soooo many years sober.

I am in love

I am so hurt

it is the mire!!!



that is all