Never Alone
She unlocked the gates and opened her heart
And let down the walls that were there from the start
A child so frightened, so hurt and alone
All she wanted was love and a place to call home
A life filled with fear, pain and neglect
Abuse all around and no self-respect
No one to turn to when she was afraid
No one to help heal her soul that was frayed
Innocence lost and feelings of guilt
On a world full of lies her foundation...

Finding my way
One day at a time
And taking back
All that is mine

With all that I’ve lost
One thing I’ve learned
Is just how easy
It is to get burned

Tragedy has followed me
Like a ghost in the night
When I think I’ve escaped it
It picks a new fight

I’ve finally wrestled
Free from its grip
But all it takes
Is one more slip

To send me back
To that...

Lost
These feelings consume me
Without a doubt
I'm trapped in my mind
And there's no way out

The fear and the worry
Has taken over me so
And these feelings I'll keep
Until I learn to let go

But letting go
Can be so hard to do
When you believe in something
That might not be true

Fear can blind you
And not let you see
What may be good
Or what's meant to be...

Do you ever wonder why God has some suffer more than others? I wonder that sometimes. It seems that my bad choices over the last two months left me to suffer extreme consequences. I lost my boyfriend, the house we were renting, my daughter, myself, my finances and now....my job.
But something I've learned about myself is that I am ready to finally move forward and stop living for yesterday. I've always been such a negative thinker and an unhealthy childhood left me a pretty messed up young...

God be in my head, and in my understanding.

Thank you lord, Amen.

:praying