so, i feel like my life is changing. my life has been changing but it has not FELT like it forever. i feel kinda scared to write this down, for i fear if i do, it will only lead me to another deep valley of s---. there has been so much time lost in my grieving and healing journey. i just felt like the word process was some sick twisted code word for doom. its been a lillte while now where i am starting to feel like a person again(and for the first time). i never thought i would actually ever not...

I dunno. I guess with all the negatives I am currently feeling in my life, I am feeling at the same time thankful. I am thankful for this site. i am thankful that people are real and vulnerable. i am thankful that everyone in their own way is seeking and searching and trying to find healing. it makes me feel not so alone in my stuff.
I feel like for the first time this large part of me is just learning how to have a voice. I feel like this giant part of my personhood has just been squelched...

Not a 100% on what a blog is. My perception is it is a theraputic tool to help one express inner thoughts, with no real need for order or complete clarity. If thats the case..
I just feel like crap today. I am usually pretty good at identifying my pain and whats eating at me. today, not so much. I just feel irriatable and sad. I am such a hopeful person, but right now I am not sure what good that is really doing me. Logically I can look at my life and am so grateful for soo much. I am so...