2nd Day

Well, it's 9:46pm here and I have been up and awake ever since writing my first blog....so that makes it over 36 hours that I have not slept so far.....hmmm...around that.

Went to Legion of Mary meeting this morning and boy do my cohorts crack me up! It's so nice that I can find humor amongst these ladies who range in age from 65 - 90. They are a gem to the world, especially my own personal one. Came home and ate some breakfast, tried to sleep but could not. It's like as soon as I lay down, a rush of energy overpowers me and pushes me to get up. About 4:30am yesterday, my friend in Australia said I'm going through a 'spiritual battle'. Feels like it....*note to self, research that*

I was laying in bed though and thinking about a few things....next thing I need to work on besides forgiveness is to somehow completely erase my mind of past incidents. Wow! If I could do that I could sell it to the world...ok, can we all say pipe dream. I cannot completely rid myself of memories...which makes me think about how wonderful the mind is...so mediocre in size but able to contain thousands upon thousands of memories. Anyways, if I can do that, I'll be fine. Sure it's great to continue trying to distract the mind from remembering certain things by reading, working out, writing, etc.., but it's getting old and very repetitive. Even switching up the routine is not helping but I'm keeping up a good vibe. A psychiatrist once told me that we hold all of the answers inside of us. As I type this I'm figuring some things out....should have blogged a long time ago eh? I'm thinking that my memories hit my mind like a group of moths hit one of those bug repellent lights at a night time bar-b-que. So how to slow them dooooooowwwwwnnnnnnnNNNN? hahahah...

I read sometime in the past few hours a great article on healing and moving forward. *reminder to self, post that up in the forums later*

Ok, over and out.....4 now...

~50~