Yes, yes...and more yes's....

Ok I have felt something that I have not felt in a long time....and it is happiness without the use of alcohol. Yesterday and today (Friday) I awoke pretty refreshed and did not feel like crawling back into the bed like I would normally do. I went to Church for lunch, prayed the rosary twice, worked on my web page project and laughed at the simple things in life; like my mother repeating the same thing over and over and over and over again <====like...

Well today is Wednesday and things have gone by like a blur. Nothing new to really report except that I have been experiencing very very bad symptoms of panic attacks. Today I thought I was going to pass out. And the racing thoughts will not subside. I know that the majority of this is from drinking and I put myself into this predicament, now it's time to get myself out of it. A doctor told me last year if I didn't have a drop of alcohol it would take 10 years to totally get rid of the side...

Well it's been sometime and hear I sit at my desk at 4am wishing that I would have taken a bit more time in writing down my feelings. Since last I wrote, I have had some terrible incidents with my family; my mother mostly. Funny how the people closest to you are the ones who ensue on pushing your buttons more and more. She told me she didn't care about me and I said, "well that's fine, I'm joining the marines." Went down to the office and everything but because of my heart condition,...

Well, it's 9:46pm here and I have been up and awake ever since writing my first blog....so that makes it over 36 hours that I have not slept so far.....hmmm...around that.

Went to Legion of Mary meeting this morning and boy do my cohorts crack me up! It's so nice that I can find humor amongst these ladies who range in age from 65 - 90. They are a gem to the world, especially my own personal one. Came home and ate some breakfast, tried to sleep but could not. It's like as soon...

Well I am starting this blog because for ages now I have wanted to type out what I have been experiences since September of 2007. It's more or less to clear my conscience out hoping that it will allow for a lot of healing and growth. Moreover, it is to share my experience with the rest of you who have gone through or are going through this thing we call 'life'.

First and foremost I have been drinking since 1996. It is now 2008 so, going on 12 years almost. 'Almost' being the...