Evaluation day came unexpectedly yesterday. I knew it was coming, but thought maybe next week or so. I want to write this down--so I don't take it granted and can come back and see it later. I was really worried my boss was going to just nitpick with everything and put some of my faults that I just can't help down and pound around on those. But she didn't -- she gave me a good on everything and excellent marks on a lot. The good ones were because she said she couldn't give me all 100%. At my last...

im on day 3
last nite i felt physically bad. yesterday morning i was sick at my stomach and blamed it on taking vitamins. last nite i was sick at stomach and had nothing to blame it on unless it was the coke i drank (havent had any pop for quite some time as i have been drinking water) i finally just went to bed since i felt bad.
once i went to bed, i kept feeling like something was ....hard to describe. not like crawling on me, or like a hair was there tickling but kinda in between....

back to another day 2 again. blah.
i had 12 days in and caved like a damn bat, closed eyes, flying blind into my comfortable little home of intoxication. i drank on an 18pk from friday until sunday nite. i didn't really ever get my drunk on. so i don't know if the twelve days sober changed something or what it was. anyhoo it was a waste of time. i had a list going of things to do to keep myself occupied and only got one thing done. blah. so that didn't work. and i didn't even have a reason...

Just wanted to post a Happy 4th of July blog this evening.
Tomorrow is Independence Day in the United States. I've lived in the USA all my life in a little town. I haven't ever been too awful far from home and never for too long. I have dreams of going to Ireland someday---maybe si, maybe no. But's it's been a dream for quite some time. I've heard it's beautiful. My country is beautiful too, although I haven't seen much of it except for in pictures or on tv or movies. I'm just a smalltown...

today....
today i plan to get the crappy things i don't like to do at work done first.
today i plan to turn my head going past the drive thru, no matter how stinking hot it is--i don't need a beer (remember, remember, remember)
today i plan to think about how nice it is to be in bed reading my nighttime book....sober
today i plan on getting a project i've been working on at work completed
today i plan to not stress over a person at work who has just literally burnt...