Hi, I just signed up for this site today. I have tried recovery in the past and never succeeded, I don't think I was ready. I have been through rehab, had multiple hospital visits, and lost many friends through the years because of my habit. My love for alcohol has taken over as my best friend over the past 3 years and I have isolated myself to the point where leaving the house for anything other than going to work or school is just not something I will willingly do anymore, even if alcohol is involved....