Day 7

Whoo - Hoo! Feeling really good. Even enthusiastic. Still a little leary. Last night I walked by the wine aisle in the store and looked at it and it just freaked me out for some reason. I didn't have the urge to buy anything, but it just gave me a jolt. Got out of there fast. Also went home to sit at the computer and had the thought of: glass of wine and computer...(loved to get on the computer and drink wine!) another jolt. But it went away just a fast as it came. That is frightening to me.

Getting addicted to walking in the morning. Its really dark when I get up and K doesn't want me to go out that early...but just feel the need to do it. It will help when we have the time change which isn't till November, so not sure I can walk all of October. Might have to do some of the tapes that I have bought over the years and done once.

I am getting past all the anxiety and calming down and looking at everything in perspective. No I can't paint the entire inside of the house in a week, no I can't pull all the weeds in one weekend, no I can't...no I can't...so now I can make lists and tackle things one at a time over the fall and winter.

I just pray I can keep this up. It really helps to come here everyday and just write it down. Makes me think about it.