Day 6

I walked again this morning. Really helps to get out and get the anxiety out. Feeling really good. Anxiety is almost all gone. Now I am in a mad rush to catch up and try to fix all that has gone downhill in the last year. I see housework that needs to be done, painting that needs to be done, clean up the paperwork. That is what is causing anxiety now. I don't think about drinking at all. I drive by the store after work and usually would stop. I don't even think about it. I don't have any cravings. I really think I just put my mind to it and that is that. I HOPE! The test will be going to the cabin on the weekend. There is where I can really drink, sitting on the dock in the hot sun with a big ole glass of wine or 10.

I am so much more on top of the kids with their homework. They are great and just get their stuff done, but now I am actually asking them what they are doing, asking specific questions about how their day went. ITs hard to believe I let myself get to the place I did. I thought I couldn't live without alcohol, but I can and will. I know its only 6 days, but I just have a feeling this is it.

I have already lost 5 lbs. Clothes are fitting better, I have more energy and am so thankful for every minute of the day.