The Beginning To A New End!
Posted 04-19-2008 at 08:06 AM by dman
***I don't care if you want to judge me I'm going to be open about my issues. Only God can judge me ***
Well first of all my name is Derek I'm 20 years old and I'm from Metro Detroit Michigan. I've been really involved with hard drugs for the past 4 years and I've really been wanting to stop because of the perment damage I have done to my brain caused by ectascy. I wanted to start a blog to maybe let myself know that I am letting myself down if I turn around. I'm currenlty looking for some support groups/NA meetings to goto. I'm about to tell my parents about my addiction I haven't decided if they should know it all or just some. I have decided I DO need help. I can't do this alone and a blog will be a good thing to look back on.
So currently I am about 2/3 weeks clean from H. I did take some E last night which was a dumb decision but its in the past now. Those are really the only drugs I've been doing recently. Well and prescription pills xanax, vicodin, adderal.
Well first of all my name is Derek I'm 20 years old and I'm from Metro Detroit Michigan. I've been really involved with hard drugs for the past 4 years and I've really been wanting to stop because of the perment damage I have done to my brain caused by ectascy. I wanted to start a blog to maybe let myself know that I am letting myself down if I turn around. I'm currenlty looking for some support groups/NA meetings to goto. I'm about to tell my parents about my addiction I haven't decided if they should know it all or just some. I have decided I DO need help. I can't do this alone and a blog will be a good thing to look back on.
So currently I am about 2/3 weeks clean from H. I did take some E last night which was a dumb decision but its in the past now. Those are really the only drugs I've been doing recently. Well and prescription pills xanax, vicodin, adderal.
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congrats on recognizing you have a problem. blog, blog, blog here. it's a source of feedback you won't get anywhere else.
best wishes to you on whatever you can do to take care of yourself.
Posted 04-19-2008 at 07:32 PM by faith08
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congratulations!
Hey dman,
I just wanted to tell you welcome and thank you for sharing what you are going through. Blogging can be a great way to release feelings you are holding onto and also to get support. Personally, as the wife of an addict, I get perspective from reading blogs. I can understand his pain a little that way.
Also, I would highly suggest telling your parents. Tell them everything. They will be shocked at first Im sure, but having the support of people who love you is the only way you can make it through this. They need to be able to get help and education too. Good luck hun! Be strong!Posted 04-21-2008 at 02:44 PM by Danishthorn - You are a walking pharmacy! Don't think you'll make the Olympics THIS year! Well...that's okay. It's hard to quit EVERYTHING at once...ask anybody locked up. It's amazing what prisoners will do to get high. Hang in there buddy. I quit using...being an active addict and it can be done...but I still smoke....and that's candy to you at this point....so I won't go on and on about how hard it is to quit....cause I'm a pansy next to you. Good luck and NA is actually really cool...the brainwashing about Jesus is a little hard to take at first...excuse me...higher power....but the program does have a good idea. Take what ya need from there. Plus REAL people are always better than virtual.
LOVE YA!Posted 04-21-2008 at 03:27 PM by lilbit - Thank you guys for the support. I'm still holding in strong. It's only been like 4 days but thats 4 more days than usual lolPosted 04-22-2008 at 09:53 AM by dman
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You have taken the biggest step and that is admitting you have a problem. I'd get to an NA meeting as quickly as you can because see once you start getting the support you will feel so much better.
Even if you don't feel ready to tell your parents now you can do it once you've started going to meetings and feeling better you will find the strength.
I wish you all the luck in the world xxxPosted 12-28-2008 at 11:57 AM by geekorunique
