Well at least it seems like forever. Still staying strong living the sober life for the most part. Although I do drink on occasion I am not out of control. No drug use and I've been living in New York from Detroit for the last 2 weeks. Good to get away from all them negative influences. Sometimes when you can't make your own will power I guess you just gotta get away from the past. Met a new girl that i've been talking to for a little and been going to meetings around NY. Hopefully everything works...

Still sober even though my girlfriend of 3 years left me because she found out about my H usage, I'm still sticking strong. I found out that I need to start doing things for me and not for her. I need to grow as a person and experience life on my own before I can hold a good solid relationship. Surprisingly I did not use after my girl left me. I did drink a little but nothing to out of control.

I'm happy and starting to just feel better in general.

***I don't care if you want to judge me I'm going to be open about my issues. Only God can judge me ***

Well first of all my name is Derek I'm 20 years old and I'm from Metro Detroit Michigan. I've been really involved with hard drugs for the past 4 years and I've really been wanting to stop because of the perment damage I have done to my brain caused by ectascy. I wanted to start a blog to maybe let myself know that I am letting myself down if I turn around. I'm currenlty looking...