A short story.
Posted 08-19-2008 at 04:57 PM by debs4321
Hello everyone, My name is Deb. I am a recovering Alcoholic/Addict.
My DOC was Meth when I came into the rooms. Alcohol is where it all centered for me.
I wont bore you with all the details, just the highlights.
I started drinking when I was around 13, for reasons that at the time were unknown to me. Mostly fitting in, being a part of, Being someone different.
I immediately was drawn to alcohol and continued to drink heavily for the next 17 years. Adding to the experiences with alcohol I had a huge Cocaine addiction for many years as well. I always had a job working in areas that served alcohol (of course) which allowed me to drink on the job. Never kept a job long (go figure). And also in my favor, usually where there is alcohol serve, drugs are not far away.
It didnt matter what was available, anything to take me out of me, was my DOC.
I met a man who introduced me the Meth. I had had it before but, it really didnt appeal to me, I like to sleep. LOL
But, this time was different. I really liked this guy and wanted him to like me. So, I continued to hang around and do his drugs. (Sick huh?)
Before long I was totally engulfed in Meth addiction, and in a sick relationship to boot.
This addiction would carry me through for the next 10 years. I married this man and the drugs came too. The relationship was very sick, there was mental, physical and verbal abuse on both sides.
For some reason (A God thing I am sure of) I wanted out. I was tired of being tired. I was done with the recieving and giving abuse. I was done killing myself. I was at my rock bottom as they say. I had no idea how to stop, but if I didnt try I was gonna die. I had a habit alone of 600.00 a week. Just meth alone.
I talked to a person who had recovered from this hell. They told me there was a solution to my problem. They told me to set a date and find a meeting. I was very sceptical (did i spell that right? LOL) at first. But, I had tried everything else to quit. Nothing was working, including the drugs.
I was desperate, broken, sick, and wanted out.
On Jan. 5, 2007 I put the pipe down and plug in the jug. The next day I walked into the room and found sobriety. Of course it wasnt that fast. I sat down listened with an openmind, and willingness to do what was suggested.
Sit down, be quiet, and listen
Get a sponsor
Find a Higher Power
Work the steps
Get a network
Do service work
Help others
Share, Share, Share ESH!!!!
These are but a few, but vital to MY RECOVERY.
I have been sober for almost 20 months. It hasnt been a bed of roses, but it sure beats what it once was.
I have beautiful people in my network that go clear across the United States and into Canada. I have my family back, I have a good job. I have God (who I choose to call my Higher Power) in my life. All because of this program and the 12 steps.
Oh yeah, I divorced my EX. He has now since gotten sober himself. And for that I am grateful for. We talk on occasions and that is also kool. I can Thank God for that as well.
Hope this wasnt too long or too boring. LOL
Deb
My DOC was Meth when I came into the rooms. Alcohol is where it all centered for me.
I wont bore you with all the details, just the highlights.
I started drinking when I was around 13, for reasons that at the time were unknown to me. Mostly fitting in, being a part of, Being someone different.
I immediately was drawn to alcohol and continued to drink heavily for the next 17 years. Adding to the experiences with alcohol I had a huge Cocaine addiction for many years as well. I always had a job working in areas that served alcohol (of course) which allowed me to drink on the job. Never kept a job long (go figure). And also in my favor, usually where there is alcohol serve, drugs are not far away.
It didnt matter what was available, anything to take me out of me, was my DOC.
I met a man who introduced me the Meth. I had had it before but, it really didnt appeal to me, I like to sleep. LOL
But, this time was different. I really liked this guy and wanted him to like me. So, I continued to hang around and do his drugs. (Sick huh?)
Before long I was totally engulfed in Meth addiction, and in a sick relationship to boot.
This addiction would carry me through for the next 10 years. I married this man and the drugs came too. The relationship was very sick, there was mental, physical and verbal abuse on both sides.
For some reason (A God thing I am sure of) I wanted out. I was tired of being tired. I was done with the recieving and giving abuse. I was done killing myself. I was at my rock bottom as they say. I had no idea how to stop, but if I didnt try I was gonna die. I had a habit alone of 600.00 a week. Just meth alone.
I talked to a person who had recovered from this hell. They told me there was a solution to my problem. They told me to set a date and find a meeting. I was very sceptical (did i spell that right? LOL) at first. But, I had tried everything else to quit. Nothing was working, including the drugs.
I was desperate, broken, sick, and wanted out.
On Jan. 5, 2007 I put the pipe down and plug in the jug. The next day I walked into the room and found sobriety. Of course it wasnt that fast. I sat down listened with an openmind, and willingness to do what was suggested.
Sit down, be quiet, and listen
Get a sponsor
Find a Higher Power
Work the steps
Get a network
Do service work
Help others
Share, Share, Share ESH!!!!
These are but a few, but vital to MY RECOVERY.
I have been sober for almost 20 months. It hasnt been a bed of roses, but it sure beats what it once was.
I have beautiful people in my network that go clear across the United States and into Canada. I have my family back, I have a good job. I have God (who I choose to call my Higher Power) in my life. All because of this program and the 12 steps.
Oh yeah, I divorced my EX. He has now since gotten sober himself. And for that I am grateful for. We talk on occasions and that is also kool. I can Thank God for that as well.
Hope this wasnt too long or too boring. LOL
Deb
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Not too long at all!~ Great story!! My doc was meth too.
Horrible thing to be addicted too. That is awesome 20 months!! Great job!!! I will have three years in November!
10 years, wow, that is really something to be proud of.
I hope you stick around and keep posting!!!
Congrats to you again!!Posted 08-19-2008 at 09:27 PM by Done_With_It
- It is really very horrible thing to get addicted too Alcohol what ever may be the reason ,but its good that u have realised and tryed to change yourself .And you very not at all boring its a nice information for the othersPosted 08-19-2008 at 10:09 PM by angelina03
- It is really very horrible thing to get addicted too Alcohol what ever may be the reason ,but its good that u have realised and tryed to change yourself .And you very not at all boring its a nice information for the others
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<a href="http://www.drugtreatments.com/missouri ">Missouri Drug Treatment</a>Posted 08-19-2008 at 10:11 PM by angelina03 -
Hi Debs,
yeah you're very grateful for your good life and so sweeet with others. It's very beautiful to see you sharing the wealth all around. very generous and forgiving you are. Thanks for being you. the world is a nicer place with you in it! YAY !!!
RobbyPosted 08-20-2008 at 06:10 PM by RobbyRobot -
[COLOR="Indigo"][/COLORsoooooooooo not boring!!!!!!!!!!! the devils drug was my doc too, tho i have only 2days off it, i also have a sexual friendship with my supplier, he's downing on me cos i told him im goin to rehab...i have dreamt of being as clean as you are for a long time...did you ever feel like you had suffered brain damage cos of it?
people keep tellin me meth an gettin off it is all in the head not like herion which i know from years ago is physically vile in its detox..but i dunno bout that, just dunno...like the other day i had 3 days up an just went of my head mate! smashed windows in ma house ,puncht holes in the walls then took 900mgs of oxasepam an passed out in da kitchen so im told...i cant remember a darn thing bout it.
scared im very scared. the cravings for it are ridiculous an right now i dont hold much hope that i'll evz live without it...attempting to hold on white knuckle it til im in rehab....geez the potholes are huge an easy to fall into tho..well im dribbling now so i will say you are a champ an byezPosted 08-22-2008 at 06:38 AM by All About Love -
What a great story Deb! my doc was meth too in the beginning, but before that it was alcohol and after that it was vicodin.
Thanks for sharing your story and congrats on 20 months! SheilaPosted 08-29-2008 at 09:54 PM by Lily
