http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/dean62/ Online Support Groups for Addicts, Alcoholics and their Family, Friends and Loved Ones. Thu, 16 Feb 2012 03:22:29 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/dean62/ http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/dean62/1919-st-francis-prayer.html Fri, 06 Mar 2009 20:28:34 GMT Me: Don't pray for me.

Good Person: well to late for that , already have

Me: Let it come through you

Me: take a moment and be still

Me: Then talk to me

Good Person: k
Good Person: theres tears
Good Person: you dont have to be in such pain
Good Person: let it go
Good Person: beleive
Good Person: your not alone
Good Person: youve never been alone ]]> Dean62 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/dean62/1919-st-francis-prayer.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/dean62/1911-can-she-hurt-me.html Thu, 05 Mar 2009 03:54:10 GMT can she hurt me can she hurt me ]]> Dean62 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/dean62/1911-can-she-hurt-me.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/dean62/1055-not-sure-what-call.html Sun, 27 Jul 2008 02:38:14 GMT The thoughts in my head, the ones that won't go away, that have been there for so long. The thoughts that hold me back and keep me from growing. Worries, fears, false expectations. They are of man, the light of man. Feelings of insecurity, low self worth, self pity and self. So many man made lights they are as the lights of a city. Needing energy to shine, needing my energy, taking my energy. They are my Ego, bright within themselves they come together to blot out the stars.

The stars, beautiful, natural, self sustaining life. The stars are of God. Always there, always giving their light, beauty, peace and joy. I can't see the stars when I'm surrounded by, in, the lights of man. But I know they are there. They always have been and they always will be. To see the stars clearly I remove myself from the city lights. The stuff of man, all that I have learned, all that I know, all that I thought I was. I remove.

For the first time I can now see the stars clearly burning brightly in the sky. As I look closer I see they aren't stars at all. They are people. God is in all of us. The light of God shines in all of us and now I can see the light. In the light I see you.

You are here with me now holding my hand. You too have let go of all that has held you back. Releasing the bondage of self that has been blocking out the light of the stars you join me. Removing the veil of ego we are free of self at last. Nothing remains but our naked souls together, alone, with the stars. Burning brighter than I have ever seen them before I am now seeing what has always been there.

I thank you for letting me see God in you. ]]> Dean62 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/dean62/1055-not-sure-what-call.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/dean62/1006-gift.html Tue, 15 Jul 2008 04:01:05 GMT When I picked it up my world was right. Life was as it should be, life began. When I used it, the way it should be used, the way it was meant to be used, why it was created to be used. A feeling of... When I picked it up my world was right. Life was as it should be, life began. When I used it, the way it should be used, the way it was meant to be used, why it was created to be used. A feeling of joy exploded out of me and consumed me to the point I was joy. It was no longer a feeling or thought. There was no thought, only knowledge. Every cell held that knowledge. It was an unstoppable force, I was an unstoppable force. I no longer saw people as friends or enemies, I was neutral. I saw people as pieces of joy, intricate parts of the dance. There was no future, no past in the Dance. Time stopped, nothing else existed but the Dance. I had found freedom. A dance of joy and unbound freedom that existed in the moment. And the moment lasted Forever.

I awoke in the moment.

As if in slow motion I could see things, create things, my mind was one step ahead......of everything. The dance was being spontaneously coriographed in it's perfection. Nothing was wasted, the moves materialized in the motion of the moment. Everything around me, the air, the ground, the empty space of sound grasped me and propelled me forward. The moment formed ahead and materialized within me.

The moment is Peace, the true Gift of infinite Love. ]]> Dean62 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/dean62/1006-gift.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/dean62/972-friend.html Wed, 09 Jul 2008 21:16:49 GMT I'm feeling lonely and down this morning. I'm looking around and this morning it feels like I have no one close. I have been doing really well in recovery and tell people about it but I skip over the weak spots. I get excited about the good things I am learning and I try to share with others to help them and myself. I don't mean to come across like I'm actually doing and living everything I learn and share with others. Life isn't that way. This morning I'm depressed, I need to put down in writing when I'm feeling this way to keep me in reality. I have prayed this morning but I haven't been able to shake my humanness, my worldliness. Not being able to get really close to anyone and share and know everything about each other is causing sadness in me. The love of God is enough but I still haven't let go completely, others still effect me. I still allow others to control my feelings and this morning I'm feeling sad and alone. I don't know how to be a friend. I don't know how other people do it so easily. ]]> Dean62 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/dean62/972-friend.html