Friend?
Posted 07-09-2008 at 03:16 PM by Dean62
I'm feeling lonely and down this morning. I'm looking around and this morning it feels like I have no one close. I have been doing really well in recovery and tell people about it but I skip over the weak spots. I get excited about the good things I am learning and I try to share with others to help them and myself. I don't mean to come across like I'm actually doing and living everything I learn and share with others. Life isn't that way. This morning I'm depressed, I need to put down in writing when I'm feeling this way to keep me in reality. I have prayed this morning but I haven't been able to shake my humanness, my worldliness. Not being able to get really close to anyone and share and know everything about each other is causing sadness in me. The love of God is enough but I still haven't let go completely, others still effect me. I still allow others to control my feelings and this morning I'm feeling sad and alone. I don't know how to be a friend. I don't know how other people do it so easily.
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Hey Deany! Your first blog on this site, way to go dude!
"I still let others control how i feel."
Totally, this is a problem for me to. But not only should we not let other people control how we feel, we should also not let things control how we feel. We are in control of our feelings, we have a big role in controlling how we feel at any given moment. I know this well, one time my therapist actually got angry at me for letting some small thing make feel like crap. Since then, ive been more mindfull about this. Believe me please, you are a super great guy, I have learned soo very much from you during the short period I have known you. You are a jewel, "dont worry, be happy" Give yourself a little more credit. big hugs.Posted 07-09-2008 at 04:07 PM by adore79
- Hi Dean,
It's great to see you blogging. Recovery is a rollercoaster of emotions, at least it has been for me. If you're feeling sad and alone, try not to fight it. Acknowledge the feelings and just sit with them, if you can. They hurt, but they won't kill us. And trust, if you can, that they will pass, and you'll feel stronger again. Just keep working hard at your recovery, and have faith that you're exactly where you are meant to be at this moment.Posted 07-09-2008 at 09:20 PM by Rowan -
Hey "Humble"--just posted to this entry at the other website...checked to see if you were here....hang in there!
Posted 07-09-2008 at 09:32 PM by ANGELINA243 -
I know being on the internet is not the same as F2F.
But I can most defiantely say.
You have proven to be a very caring friend to me.
Your always there when it counts.
Just hold tight.Posted 07-10-2008 at 01:01 PM by Aysha
