I'm not doing to good. I'm in a lot of pain and don't know how todeal with it. Nothing is working and all I can think about is how the pain would go away if I just took a hit. I'm going crazy and I don't know what to do. I can't get anywhere toget the pain taken care of and so I'm stuck with it. Does anybody have any ideas what I can do for pain?

Hello,
I am feeling a little better today. My body doesn't feel like it's ripping apart from my mind anyway. I still want to use really bad, but it's a start I guess.

I've been thinking about crack and cocaine for days now and I can't get it off my mind no matter what I seem to do. I was going to go to a meeting but I don't have anybody to watch my kids for me. I'm so tired and in so much pain, a big part of me feels like everything would be fixed if I just had a little. Then I remember that I can't just have a little and that I have my babies to take care of. But I know that if I hadn't had my kids the other night I would have been in my car searching for drugs...

I've been thinking about crack and cocaine for days now and I can't get it off my mind no matter what I seem to do. I was going to go to a meeting but I don't have anybody to watch my kids for me. I'm so tired and in so much pain, a big part of me feels like everything would be fixed if I just had a little. Then I remember that I can't just have a little and that I have my babies to take care of. But I know that if I hadn't had my kids the other night I would have been in my car searching for drugs...

My name is Crystal and I'm new to this site. I've been clean for a few years but I'm having trouble staying that way these days. I have two beeautiful children and a great husband. I love them all very much and I don't want to lose what I have. My husband was sent away with the Military and now it's the kids and I. I miss him a lot but I think the hardest part is being with my children 24/7. I have no help and no matter how much I try I can't seem to keep my duahgter happy. I have been in and out...