hi there..it is day number 2 for me, and i just woke up from a "sleepless-sleep". you know how you are asleep but feel awake the whole time, tossing and turning! i hate that feeling. so through all the cold sweats, a nose bleed, the dry heave and throwing up i feel somewhat better. i am still a little bit shaky, but i think it will be ok! i work today at 1pm and am finding myself to be getting irritated with the customers pretty easily...i think that's pretty normal though. it's not their...

through some great advice from my new chat friends...i have to stop snivling and do the work...meaning sponsor, step work, and meetings...after honest openminded and willing right...but how willing am i? i don't to drink EVER again..I have too much to lose...my friends would tell you that my word is golden...hasn't always i am no saint... i can't live inside of a vodka bottle...so here goes evrything i have to give...thank you to people in the chat room today!! peace...Christian

hi there everyone!!! i am renewing my sobriety as of today...i can't take it anymore....i am "sick and tired of being sick and tired". i don't feel comfortable with going to meetings, ADD , Bi-polar, and PTSD...so sitting still for an hour isn't possible for me....what can i do diff. THIS TIME....so i found this site on accident -however is there any such thing as accident? i say no!! at any rate i i like the idea of being able to blog on a daILY basis...and still get the connection of...

i think i figured it out