That is called insanity! But that is what happened to me. Yes I took three hits and didn’t even get high. Must have been some bunk **** cause three hits usually after the first hit you can feel it? So I am in awe as I come here tonight. Wasn’t going to post this anywhere but I did post earlier in a few places just to get it out. I am struck by what happened. The thing about the whole thing is that the obsession and the compulsion...

I am feeling somewhat OK again tonight. I went to a meeting again today, I don't think that I got one in yesterday but I have a memory loss that isn't funny

I haven't really been talking a lot and than I had a issue with my landlord today. He asked me how the rent was coming and I told him that it's NOT> I told him that two months ago I told him about this leak from above, it is a sewer leak, ruined my computer desk and I am not paying rent. He started with his usual...

Feeling much better now which is good. I don't like it at all when I get into those mental states. LMAO of course I am sure that everyone knows that I am very mental>>>>>

Having taken my Anti-D again today I think that I am on day 4 not sure but I am feeling much better. Still have the shame from taking the medications though. I just don't know how to deal with that issue at all. Trying to process it through the steps and talking with others about it...

Well I have been struggling with depression here for quite sometime and last night I figured that either I start taking my meds again or I will be more alone than ever because no one would want to be around me anyway with the moods that I have been having.

I was on cymbolta (sp) and serequel (sp) for most of my recovery this time and basically for my hep C that I had which I have taken the treatment and it has been removed. So any how I didn't want to stay on the meds (Anti-D's)...