Feeling OK

I am feeling somewhat OK again tonight. I went to a meeting again today, I don't think that I got one in yesterday but I have a memory loss that isn't funny

I haven't really been talking a lot and than I had a issue with my landlord today. He asked me how the rent was coming and I told him that it's NOT> I told him that two months ago I told him about this leak from above, it is a sewer leak, ruined my computer desk and I am not paying rent. He started with his usual crap. I told him that not only that, but the hot water don't work right, the toilet needs fixed, the heater don't heat the place : and he goes, why didn't you tell me LMMFAO I said well why should I...I told ya two months ago and again a month ago about the leak.

Well I was leaving for my meeting at the time and he said something very hateful. I just smiled and left. LOL

So it seems like the Anti-D's are helping me somewhat but you know I still need to work on a lot of issues and one of them is the feeling of being used. I feel as if I treat people right, kindly most of the time and I try to show my appreciation and than it just feels like I get Sh.t upon all of the time and I am tired of it. I almost feel as if I shouldn't even help some people anymore but that wouldn't be right either.

I did PM a few people here today and only got one back.. LMAO I guess that I am not liked here anymore either. Well such is my life and sometimes it really suck.s