Another Piece Of The Puzzle

Well I have been struggling with depression here for quite sometime and last night I figured that either I start taking my meds again or I will be more alone than ever because no one would want to be around me anyway with the moods that I have been having.

I was on cymbolta (sp) and serequel (sp) for most of my recovery this time and basically for my hep C that I had which I have taken the treatment and it has been removed. So any how I didn't want to stay on the meds (Anti-D's) since they were really for the treatment of the Interferon that I was on. Well I went off of them a little over a month and I can only tell you that my life was getting more hateful and spiteful everyday. Not even wanting to do anything or willing to do anything.

So I figured that I would get back on my meds and I have a appointment with my Doctor next month but I feel that I might need to get on a different Anti-D than what I am currently on. I so struggle with this because of the beliefs that I have been taught and also with the Program of NA or at least my perception of the program and the steps and traditions. So here I am going against my beliefs ughhhh.