When the grass looks greener
on the other side of the fence,
it may be that they take better care
of it over there.
Faith can move mountains,
but don't be surprised
if God hands you a shovel.
I'm moving on from
over 28 years of drinking...
taking what works,leaving what doesn't.
Your comments are always welcome.
Pains
Posted 07-05-2009 at 05:58 PM by bohemianzen
I'm back again. After almost a month of binge drinking on the weekends (couple of 3 day ones too) I have to stop. I have to. Dammit. My good intentions are worthless.
I'm laying here on the couch--I'm just sore all over for some reason. I'm probably the only person on earth that can pull muscles by being a lazy butt laying on the couch all day. No, really I don't know what the deal is. I didn't do anything yesterday to strain myself (except for curls with my beer drinking hand unfortunately) My liver and stomach are hurting as well as my back. I have to make an appt to go back to the doctor in August and also have several blood tests a couple that focus on my liver. Geesh I want them to come back ok. I've got to stop drinking so I have a chance at that for one. Then for another--I got to stop drinking. I'm killing myself. I know that in my head...but then on the way home from work I don't know what in the hell happens.
It's embarassing to be back and admitting to a big relapse. But I feel this site can help me so here I am. Again.
It sucks.
A new sober date...July 5 ... I was praying for the freedom from alcohol last nite and at the same time wishing there was just one more beer in the fridge..pathetic.
I'm laying here on the couch--I'm just sore all over for some reason. I'm probably the only person on earth that can pull muscles by being a lazy butt laying on the couch all day. No, really I don't know what the deal is. I didn't do anything yesterday to strain myself (except for curls with my beer drinking hand unfortunately) My liver and stomach are hurting as well as my back. I have to make an appt to go back to the doctor in August and also have several blood tests a couple that focus on my liver. Geesh I want them to come back ok. I've got to stop drinking so I have a chance at that for one. Then for another--I got to stop drinking. I'm killing myself. I know that in my head...but then on the way home from work I don't know what in the hell happens.
It's embarassing to be back and admitting to a big relapse. But I feel this site can help me so here I am. Again.
It sucks.A new sober date...July 5 ... I was praying for the freedom from alcohol last nite and at the same time wishing there was just one more beer in the fridge..pathetic.
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Good luck with everything! I hope you had a good day at work too! Sometimes it's nice to just have something to keep your mind off everything.Posted 07-06-2009 at 08:23 PM by QuietGirrl
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yea i'm glad i had to go to work yesterday. hope u are doing well!Posted 07-07-2009 at 04:32 AM by bohemianzen
