I just watched the new Intervention on A&E. It broke my heart. The one thing I love about that show is the end...when you see the addict healing with days sober under their belt. Well I was really waiting on the end of this one because the guy fought so hard against his family to not go and then ended up going.
SPOILER****
I sat here in shock as they just started running across the screen a bunch of sentences about him going thru the whole treatment and such and then said he was...

From Sober For Good by Anne M Fletcher

"Do whatever it takes, if it's not illegal or immoral."
"Put sobriety first--change anything in your life that endangers it: relationships, jobs, hobbies, places, habits."
"I never bought into the AA powerless thing. I don't think I'm powerless. I had too many years of not taking charge of m life, and I don't want to lose that now. Becomeing sober felt like taking contorl--the more I saw the results of staying...

Some things I highlighted:
"it's about taking active steps to achieve a new plane of living, to build a life with no room for alcohol abuse"
"I then got busy creating my new life rather than waiting for my next relapse"
"When cravings would come, it was like there were two voices in my mind: one loud, aggressive voice that would lobby hard to break abstinence, and the other, more passive voice that would try to hang on the abstinence for all it was worth....

only Tuesday and I feel like should be the end of the week already. i'm still feeling bad physically. my stomach and side have really been giving me problems. i talked to a girl today and am wondering now if it's really my gallbladder and not just GERD and my liver. yeah i'm still worried about getting my blood done for my liver and the results of that. but i have another month to work on it (meaning not drinking and giving it a chance to breathe for once) but anyway the girl i talked to today has...

I'm back again. After almost a month of binge drinking on the weekends (couple of 3 day ones too) I have to stop. I have to. Dammit. My good intentions are worthless.
I'm laying here on the couch--I'm just sore all over for some reason. I'm probably the only person on earth that can pull muscles by being a lazy butt laying on the couch all day. No, really I don't know what the deal is. I didn't do anything yesterday to strain myself (except for curls with my beer drinking hand unfortunately)...