So it goes, I suppose.

Just a relaxing, rainy friday night. I've begun writing again-- have been trying to write the same story for three years, and it never really comes out right.

So I'm trying to do a noir-ish short story instead. Just a little fun project. If it winds up being 20 pages or so, I'll be happy. It's called "The Green Veil"- it occurred to me that women wear white veils when they're getting married, and black veils when they're mourning,...

I've been shying away from pouring out current troubles, but I think doing it as a conscious/stream of conciousness meditation might help me get to sleep. I hope.

Drinking is out of the question.

My parents have put their house on the market, and though it's well-priced, it's not getting much attention. I don't think my parents live in reality. I know my mother doesn't, and she's the parent I have a strong connection with. After riding the wave of the yuppie Reaganite...

When I was a boy/ I dreamed of Philip Marlowe...
-from Dream of a Child, by Burton Cummings

Just checking in for the night, really. I don't know why I'm so exhausted and tired, but I am. Last night I went to a meeting-- a stag meeting where you get called on to share (especially if you're a newcomer, which I currently technically am). Not just to stand and share, but with a bloody microphone at a podium in front of a couple hundred other alcoholics.
I actually spoke...

well, that is, I can't drink it away.

Checking in with myself for the night. I'm going to attempt to post a quick something each evening, same as I make a daily call to my sponsor.

There's a lot of bad going on. Plenty. But I have a choice-- do something about it, or bitch about it. To vomit all these things into a blog will only send them swirling around me in a whirlpool, dragging me down.

I acknowledge these things are there-- these troubles. To...

You felt great waking up this morning.

You woke up early and got a lot done.

If you're tempted at any time tonight, read this and remember-- a great day begins the night before, and abstaining last night in order to feel this good today has been damned well worth it.