So the interview went at least decently. We'll see what happens. I think it went really well, but one never knows until the results are in.

In the meantime, I read something in the forums that makes me want to try to embed a YouTube video.

And since there's an old spiritual that I'm enamoured with at the moment, here it is:

"If He Changed My Name"


Just a test.

I'm a sober non-smoker.

I love saying that.

I have a job interview this morning, and thank God-- I'm working hard at two jobs at the moment, and it's not covering my living expenses. This is due to things like having a lease I can't get out of and a car payment reflecting the mileage-overage from my previous lease.

I've quit smoking. Expense lowered. I've quit drinking. Expense lowered. I carry a water bottle/canteen instead of buying bottled water....

Today was day four of being a non-smoker.

I'm still happy, but still struggling. I'm determined to remain a healthy person who doesn't smoke.

But whoooa, have I been messed up the last two days. I am not a moody, irritable person....I am not a negative person....but I've met people over the past two days whose head I wanted to tear the flesh off of, chew to a mush in front of them, and feed to my dog. Yes, it's been intense.

I actually don't want a...

As of today, I'm a non-smoker.

Withdrawel is a #()$*@ right now. Really. Really.

Earlier today I was a little jittery, but happy with my decision. Right now it's so, so hard. I never want to have to quit again. That's why this time I'm sticking to it. I never want to have to quit again.

I'm screaming, crying on the inside. I'm not going to say I can't do it. I CAN do it. I know this for a fact. But the addiction is telling me 2903 reasons why I need to...

-Removed by Dave-