Something strange is going on. It really seems the smoke is rising lately. I'm not feeling quite as anxious as I normally am. My mood is a bit more upbeat then normal, and just have a better overall attitude towards life lately.

I won't get to cocky and say I'm in the clear. But it is nice to have the whirlwind of bad emotions settle down some. I've up my intake of vitamins. Eating plenty of fruits and vegetables with every meal, at least as many as I can keep on hand, I go through...

73 days in and I still have anxiety most every day. Some days are pretty mild like just a minor discomfort. Other days I feel like I want to jump right out of my skin. I've been doing alot of research on the anxiety and depression issue concerning recovery. I'm not really a candidate for depression, but the more my anxiety lingers on the more it causes me to be depressed over it. And as soon as my anxiety totally lifts so does my depression.

But I've been reading about nutritional therapy....

No I didn't have a relapse. I still have zero love or desire to ever drink again. But sometimes I get scared when I think of it. There's people out there who get 1 or many years under their belt and then boom! Fall right off the wagon and drink again. I know it's no good to dwell on what may be but it still sends a shiver up my spine. I'm literally to scared to ever drink again. Thinking of my last couple drunks and the vicious hangovers. How much more and more I could feel myself slipping away...

This one isn't so much recovery related. I just want to vent right now, I've been pretty down the past few says. One part of the old winter time blues, especially after having nearly a week of nice bright sunny weather and now the usual cold and gray winter weather is back. That would be bad enough but I have my Dog not doing so good right now.

Last Thursday morning he suddenly couldn't walk. So I let him take it easy and see if he would get any better the next day. He didn't so I took...

A thought that's been going on in the back of my mind recently. When it comes to sobriety, do really have to want it to succeed? Coming from personal experience here in my many attempts to stop drinking I was usualy all fired up up in the first few days to stop. You know, when the hangover is at it's worst. But then a few days later after I felt better I would start to think more about it. Silly crap like how I'm gonna miss drinking when it's a nice day to be at the lake. Having drinks on Christmas...