Day 12
Posted 04-28-2009 at 12:29 PM by Bard
Day 12 and going strong. Actually not much to really post here, my mood has been stable. Still get bouts of feeling restless like last night just out of the blue I felt like i had to get up and do something but there was nothing to do. I've really been getting into my video games again. I use to be a big gamer years ago but it kind of fizzled out as I got older and drank more and at most I would pop in a game, mess around with it for a while then turn it off. But for the last few days I've been spending day and night on them, so hey whatever keeps me distracted in my free time. Also been chowing down alot. Over the weekend was my Sisters birthday, I BBQ on Friday and made meatloaf on Saturday so both days I stuffed myself full. Then yesterday I gorged out again! Need to control that, maybe once or twice month that's alright but not for a few days like that!
But anyway I've been feeling pretty good other then the restless bouts I've been having. Hopefully once a job comes through that should help with that. Also should help with the isolation. I know I said previously I was going to start going back to AA after this relapse but once again I find myself going...ehh....maybe tomorrow. I just wasn't the biggest fan of it in the past. I know though deep inside I should do it but I'm stubborn what can I say? But for now everything is alright and I'm sober for today, and that's all I could ask for.
But anyway I've been feeling pretty good other then the restless bouts I've been having. Hopefully once a job comes through that should help with that. Also should help with the isolation. I know I said previously I was going to start going back to AA after this relapse but once again I find myself going...ehh....maybe tomorrow. I just wasn't the biggest fan of it in the past. I know though deep inside I should do it but I'm stubborn what can I say? But for now everything is alright and I'm sober for today, and that's all I could ask for.
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That is one of many things all alcoholics have in common is we are stubborn. Yeah I wasnt a big fan of AA when I first went and took a different approach, I wanted to do it on my own. I stayed sober for 6 months but besides that my life did not change. I was unemployed and spent all my time trying to keep my thoughts and feelings bottled up. I could play halo for 10 hours st8 if it passed the time and I didnt have to think about the things that raced through my mind nonestop. All I can say is AA really has changed things not just going to meetings but working the program and having a sponsor. I go to a meeting a day and if you told me this 4 months ago I would tell you that you're crazy. You have to find a good group though go to a couple different places and find one that you like the most. I wish you the best, being sober is the first step, finding the answer of how to live your life is what comes with the program.Posted 04-29-2009 at 10:22 PM by pmk118
