Day 10

Finally feeling more human now after that last screw up. I had a few cravings, one day in particular was pretty bad but luckily the Arnold side of my brain spoke up and said "Shut the f!uck up" and they went away. Initially I was pretty spooked because usually after a relapse with so much sober time it's not easy to climb back out and the feelings for drinking are stronger then they were before. But I assume since it was overall a pretty bad and humiliating experience followed up by a few days where I felt like I was going through a milder version of the detox I did back in December that so far I'm no worse for wear. But anyway I luckily am able to make a quick bounce back and I'm going to make it my number one goal in life to keep it that way. There is nothing left back there but pain and I'm learning a bad day sober beats the hell out of a good day drunk!