...but I took a one day break from the computer. I spent about 3/4 of my paycheck on things that I needed (well, mostly ). At least I didn't gamble or drink or smoke! There was a strong potential for me to go gambling...I thought it through and realized that even losing 20 bucks in 5 minutes would have made me feel terrible. I'm glad I didn't go.

I really don't care if anyone reads this. I just need a place where I can put my thoughts down. It's the new me trying to be semi-organized...


Yet another crappy day at my crappy job. I've finally decided that my current place of employment is not conducive to maintaining sobriety. I haven't slipped this time around yet...but I fear I'm close. I smoked one cig when I got home...

It really sucks living with people who always keep alcohol in the house. If...

Time is moving so slowly...30 days sober today...I have to do something before boredom sets in and I relapse...

Going to my crappy job here in a few...when am I going to get my life together and get out of here? The only hiring requirements for my current job is the ability to drool and having a pulse.


I don't know how much longer I can take this...

I need to get a backbone...I need more confidence...I'm much more capable than I let on...so why can't I do something about it NOW?!