I know it's silly. And it was resolved.
But I feel like one little meaningless comment I made hurt someone and may have been damaging to their recovery.
I did not mean ANYTHING by it.
It was just one of those thoughts out loud.
No meaning behind it at all.
It was taken the wrong way and I can see why.
And now I just feel so awful.
So now not only did I make someone feel bad that really did nothing wrong. I feel like others are taking it as me being...

Oh boy..A tow truck just came down my road. Me and grmas both were hawkin the window.
Last thing I need is for them to come repossess my car right now.
I mean it is my own fault. But all I need is a few more weeks.
I am praying they dont come get it. I am only 1 payment behind.
But it so friggin stressful.
The friggin phone is ringing..the colllection notices in the mail everyday.
I cant even go to my mailbox and my ringer is off. Only my grams hears the...

So a lady from corporate office of one of the places I put an app in calls me yesterday. She wants to talk to me about the background check.
I was upfront with the interviewer and came clean about the strong arm robbery arrest back in 2002. Explained it was only a fight where the dudes necklace got ripped off in the fight.
So this lady I guess has my background in front of her. And she starts asking what happened in 1995.
1995? HUh? I have been getting arrested since I was a...

I dont know what it is. But for the past few weeks I have been so fatigued. Alot of times I am finding myself literally falling right aslepp. WHerever I am. Especially the 2nd group at IOP. I gotta start moving a little just too keep from passing out.
I feel like I have narcolepsy. Is that what that is. When people just fall out wherever they are.
Today I was so freaking tired. And sitting group makes it worse. I am glad I am going and it isnt the groups making me feel this way. I...

I must have some serious mental issues.
The past 2 days I have been the happiest..most positive person I know.
WHat a change from the other day.
It is like nothing happened. But at the same time that is not a good thing.
Because when it feels like nothing happened. Nothing changes.
Except I know I need to do something. I dont want to die. I dont want to experiment in different ways to do drugs. I dont even want to go there.
IOP Thurs. Actually looking forward...