Always cheating death
Posted 07-16-2009 at 05:35 PM by Aysha
Seems ever since before I was born I have been cheating death. My mom was on her way to have an abortion with me and my dad stopped her.
I remember being like 5 or 6 and camping and I was standing like 10 feet away from a cliffs edge and some kid came and pushed me. I fell to my butt and slid with my feet hanging over the sides. I ran to a bench and wouldnt move. My cousin had to pick me up and carry me back to camp.
Another time when I was 11 same camp grounds. Iw as hiking and we were walking down a steep hill that had pebbles all over it. At the bottom it curved and there was a cliffs edge. I started sliding uncontrollably and stopped wiht my legs up to my knees hangin over the edge. I think I may have **** myself on that one.
Not to mention the countless times I have almost died in the streets. Almost strangles by soem dude. Getting shot. Had lots of shot guns and pistols put to my head. Been shot at. Jumped. Almost killed myself.
Almost sucked out to sea in at the beach one time. Chased by huge sting rays.
Soemtimes I wish my dad didnt stop my mom.
But I have to wonder how the hell I am even still here.
So many times I should have been dead.
I dont know if this is some cruel joke or do I really have a purpose?
I remember being like 5 or 6 and camping and I was standing like 10 feet away from a cliffs edge and some kid came and pushed me. I fell to my butt and slid with my feet hanging over the sides. I ran to a bench and wouldnt move. My cousin had to pick me up and carry me back to camp.
Another time when I was 11 same camp grounds. Iw as hiking and we were walking down a steep hill that had pebbles all over it. At the bottom it curved and there was a cliffs edge. I started sliding uncontrollably and stopped wiht my legs up to my knees hangin over the edge. I think I may have **** myself on that one.
Not to mention the countless times I have almost died in the streets. Almost strangles by soem dude. Getting shot. Had lots of shot guns and pistols put to my head. Been shot at. Jumped. Almost killed myself.
Almost sucked out to sea in at the beach one time. Chased by huge sting rays.
Soemtimes I wish my dad didnt stop my mom.
But I have to wonder how the hell I am even still here.
So many times I should have been dead.
I dont know if this is some cruel joke or do I really have a purpose?
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your here for a reason! if it was your time you wouldnt be here ..theres reasons for everthing in life , we just dont know what or why , just accept it for what and try and do what we can , the best that we can ! ~ huggles ~ EndzyPosted 07-16-2009 at 08:29 PM by endzoner
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Wow..How far we come in such a short time. With a little effort and work. Some serious rethinking and small changes. That was me for so many years. Just wanted to fall off the face of the earth. Even as a little kid I felt like that. I dont feel like that anymore. I am so grateful for the changes that have happened in my life in such a short time. It has taken alot of deep searching within myself. Alot of facing my fears and taking action. Doing things I didnt want to do. But I do not want to die anymore. I do not even want to question why I havent. Thank goodness for healing.Posted 09-17-2009 at 07:39 PM by Aysha 
