http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/ Online Support Groups for Addicts, Alcoholics and their Family, Friends and Loved Ones. Mon, 23 Nov 2009 10:49:45 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/ http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/2341-humility.html Tue, 14 Jul 2009 04:09:44 GMT Going through some tough times here lately....almost want to give up cause at times things...life..whatever just seems so hard. I have been made humble here recently...but only after I had my... Going through some tough times here lately....almost want to give up cause at times things...life..whatever just seems so hard.

I have been made humble here recently...but only after I had my ego/pride taken away.....pulverized>completely demolished.

Faith has to replace the fear. I do have hope but sometimes still feel less than --like I am not good enough/not worthy enough even to be a part of recovery.

Anyway--just have to learn how to open up--not keep this all inside myself. I can't share openly in meetings face-to-face but soon I hopefully will. I'm tired of running.....while trying to pretend on the outside that I'm ok. ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/2341-humility.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/1263-sponsorship-who-me.html Thu, 25 Sep 2008 21:36:40 GMT Well--today "officially" went through/finished Step 12 with my sponsor. (Have been working the NA Step working guide with my sponsor for the past 6 months.) Now a brand new journey begins. I have done it--for once in my life--actually finished through the 12 Steps without running away screaming.....when things started getting uncomfortable. This is my first time trying NA--so far, things are working out. I was also approached at an AA meeting I went to yesterday--asked if I would chair a monthly meeting next month. I said--who..me? It felt good..I am honored...I did check with my sponsor first--and she is thrilled. She says I am ready to sponsor others...and said I should be of service to those in need--doesn't matter which Fellowship...to follow my heart. I am grateful to AA/NA for being there when I needed help. Although NA is where I found my current sobriety...I will be forever grateful to AA and its founders--Bill W. and Dr. Bob>for without them...there wouldn't have been a Jimmy K. or NA. The NA literature does say that we are grateful to the "other" Fellowship (AA) for showing us this new way of life--which can be ours for the taking. Today--I choose life. I choose to live..and I am happy! :Val004: ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/1263-sponsorship-who-me.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/1087-sober-b-day.html Tue, 05 Aug 2008 22:11:42 GMT Today is a good day..a day I will remember. It is my birthday today and I am SOBER---whoo hoo! I had the opportunity to have lunch with my Mom, then we went shopping afterwards. I hope to see some... Today is a good day..a day I will remember. It is my birthday today and I am SOBER---whoo hoo! I had the opportunity to have lunch with my Mom, then we went shopping afterwards. I hope to see some more of my family this weekend--maybe have another get together>most everyone had to go to work today. Luckily--I don't work Tuesdays anyway, so I am just enjoying the day (without missing any pay)>God is good! Sobriety rocks!:bundance:banana: ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/1087-sober-b-day.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/1079-starting-face-face-amends-now.html Mon, 04 Aug 2008 03:13:48 GMT Made direct amends today to both my parents and my son--whew! Went better than I thought it would. Thank God for 12 Step Fellowships (I do attend a few different groups.):a194: Made direct amends today to both my parents and my son--whew! Went better than I thought it would. Thank God for 12 Step Fellowships (I do attend a few different groups.):a194: ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/1079-starting-face-face-amends-now.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/1066-step-9.html Wed, 30 Jul 2008 00:36:48 GMT Went over Step 9 with my sponsor today. Talked about how I am to make amends to people that are on my amends list. Made some "indirect amends" already. Will be making f2f amends soon to my immediate family members...really soon...YIKES! I am ready...just waiting for the appropriate time--must do them each on an individual basis>per Sponsor recommendation. We are in unchartered waters now--new territory for me>accepting my responsibility for harming others while I was active in my addiction. I am not alone....lots of support from "family" (my dear friends in my recovery program) plus the courage/strength given to me by my HP. I do believe--His strength is made perfect in my weakness. :Val004: ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/1066-step-9.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/974-5-months.html Thu, 10 Jul 2008 06:43:45 GMT Made it to 5 months! :c031: Made it to 5 months! :c031: ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/974-5-months.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/960-4th-july-remember.html Sat, 05 Jul 2008 03:58:39 GMT Had the opportunity to chair an online meeting tonight--at another website--way cool! Talked about Dr Opinion...and the essential "psychic change"--God is doing for me what I could never do on my own.....replace my fear with faith...give me courage....guide me in my daily recovery. Willingness and helping others has certainly helped me over the past few days. God is....everything :angel: ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/960-4th-july-remember.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/905-starting-my-amends-list.html Sun, 22 Jun 2008 19:47:48 GMT I finally picked up that pen--which seemed to...]]> Wow! Today I started writing my list of those I have harmed (OUCH!) I have been reading over Step 8 in the literature for the past few days...but today>I finally picked up that pen--which seemed to weigh 1000 pounds and actually started writing. I do feel a sense of "relief" I guess--having put some of the names down on paper--my mind keeps bringing up different names (at different times)...I just kinda add them as I go along....they say "More will be revealed...." just keep moving forward in the recovery process. :atv ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/905-starting-my-amends-list.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/893-na-meeting-womens-treatment-facility.html Tue, 17 Jun 2008 18:32:11 GMT Just wanted to make a quick note here that I chaired my very first NA meeting today--which happened to be at a women's treatment center. My sponsor asked if I could since she had a doctor's appointment--and didn't know if she'd make it back in time to chair. I agreed even though I was a little nervous about it--I wanted to do a good job, and I guess that I still have that "fear of failure" mentality even though I have been working through the Steps. (I am getting much better though.) The meeting was a success--and my sponsor did show up for the very last part of the meeting. All it takes is willingness and a Higher Power--with those 2 you can't go wrong! :Dance7: ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/893-na-meeting-womens-treatment-facility.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/872-step-7.html Fri, 13 Jun 2008 22:07:14 GMT Just completed Step 7 with my sponsor earlier today! We went to the park--where they have a lake with ducks and walking trails and such. Just a beautiful sunny day with the sound of children... Just completed Step 7 with my sponsor earlier today! We went to the park--where they have a lake with ducks and walking trails and such. Just a beautiful sunny day with the sound of children playing and the sound of nature all around--quite peaceful and serene. Went over step 7 in the book--said a prayer together holding hands while sitting across from each other at a picnic table. I could feel my HP presence there the whole time--but after the prayer was said--the most amazing feeling I've ever experienced. WOW! :Val004: ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/872-step-7.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/847-4-months.html Sun, 08 Jun 2008 18:17:10 GMT started with a concert I went to this past Friday night. (I...]]> Been 120 days since my last drink--according to Sober Time sobriety clock. I am feeling a little nervous today--or rather this weekend>started with a concert I went to this past Friday night. (I didn't drink--but was offered/it was all around me) God certainly did for me what I couldn't do for myself. Anyway--just needed to post how I feel and will post a 4 month announcement maybe today/tomorrow--my last drink was Feb 9 2008. Thanks for letting me rant...:ghug ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/847-4-months.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/762-95-days.html Thu, 15 May 2008 22:58:56 GMT Day 95--went over step 4 with my sponsor today! The weight of the world seems to have been lifted from my shoulders..what an amazing feeling!Image:... Day 95--went over step 4 with my sponsor today! The weight of the world seems to have been lifted from my shoulders..what an amazing feeling! ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/762-95-days.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/735-90-days.html Sat, 10 May 2008 07:07:16 GMT 90 days--clean and serene! Wow! There is hope after all! Image: http://i266.photobucket.com/albums/ii270/Angelina243/Prayer_by_oloferla.jpg Image:... 90 days--clean and serene! Wow! There is hope after all! ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/735-90-days.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/723-day-88-feeling-great.html Thu, 08 May 2008 21:10:42 GMT Just got through finishing up Step 3 with my sponsor. Now onto the "dreaded" 4th step. Just feels good knowing that I am still in the game-- haven't given up. Keep on keepin' on! :atv ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/723-day-88-feeling-great.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/714-insane-thinking.html Tue, 06 May 2008 23:11:25 GMT when it was really bad. Feeling a little better now. Strange but nothing bad happened today--it was a good day. Just...]]> Having crazy thoughts about using....already spoke to my sponsor earlier today>when it was really bad. Feeling a little better now. Strange but nothing bad happened today--it was a good day. Just on the way home from work--out of the blue I "suddenly" started thinking>which soon turned into obsessing about using. Anyway--just wanted to get that out there so I don't have to go "there". Plus, I will getting my 90 days in a few days--maybe it is just the jitters...not sure. :codiepolice ]]> ANGELINA243 http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/blogs/angelina243/714-insane-thinking.html