Humility
Posted 07-13-2009 at 10:09 PM by ANGELINA243
Going through some tough times here lately....almost want to give up cause at times things...life..whatever just seems so hard.
I have been made humble here recently...but only after I had my ego/pride taken away.....pulverized>completely demolished.
Faith has to replace the fear. I do have hope but sometimes still feel less than --like I am not good enough/not worthy enough even to be a part of recovery.
Anyway--just have to learn how to open up--not keep this all inside myself. I can't share openly in meetings face-to-face but soon I hopefully will. I'm tired of running.....while trying to pretend on the outside that I'm ok.
I have been made humble here recently...but only after I had my ego/pride taken away.....pulverized>completely demolished.
Faith has to replace the fear. I do have hope but sometimes still feel less than --like I am not good enough/not worthy enough even to be a part of recovery.
Anyway--just have to learn how to open up--not keep this all inside myself. I can't share openly in meetings face-to-face but soon I hopefully will. I'm tired of running.....while trying to pretend on the outside that I'm ok.
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Angie.Posted 07-14-2009 at 06:09 AM by MCake
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Angelina, hang in there. Just keep pushing ahead and never give up. Things will get better. Posted 07-16-2009 at 03:53 PM by SteppingItUp -
I feel alot the same way as you. Except the sharing part. You already know I have no problems unloading.
But as far as the ego and rpide being squashed. I am there with you. I dont feel good enough alot either. No matter how hard I try..It just never seems like enough. But alot of times its all in my own mind. I dont feel good enough for myself. I am my own worst enemy at times.
Hang in there brother. I know you can do it. You are good enough. You have really been a huge part of my own sanity there a few times. And still to this day the only time I veer came on here using. You stuck with me. I will never ever forget that.
Much love brother.Posted 07-16-2009 at 06:44 PM by Aysha -
Babe, that's what I thought a lot of times-" I.m so f---ed up, even God can't help me!" "I will NEVER be sober!" But, for ONCE in my life I refused to quit & kept plugging away. You ARE worthy & deservong of a break. I can tell you are a kind, compassionate person- traits that I am just beginning to learn. ( or rather, REMEMBER). Shake off whatever happened, get up, & KEEP ON FIGHTING. xoxoxoxox, .MikePosted 07-18-2009 at 06:31 PM by mikefreak -
Hang in there... I share your feelings and know that empathy is part of two people understanding on such a deep level that it still amazes me...God Bless you....You deserve Recovery and a wonderful life...CleanPosted 12-02-2010 at 06:30 AM by Clean4ever
