No no no..Bad bad bad
Posted 09-12-2009 at 11:46 PM by 28Days
Bad girl! Why are you doing this!? Stop it. You're trapping yourself you stupid child. You know that. Nothing has changed and you know that. Don't listen to him. Don't let it change anything with you. You can't. You've been doing so well! Things have been great. You've been happy. Things haven't been this great since before the drugs took him away. I know you want it to go back to that way, but it never will. It just won't. Get used to that. You will NOT be hanging out with him. He's sweet talking you. I know you just want to go back to even just being with him for stress relief, but that is so toxic. So bad for you. Don't subject yourself to that! Smarten the f-ck up you stupid child. Before you lose everything that you've built back up.
Why did you contact him like that? Why haven't you stopped yet!? He's sweet talking you!!! You stupid git..
I really hate you for letting him do this.
Why did you contact him like that? Why haven't you stopped yet!? He's sweet talking you!!! You stupid git..
I really hate you for letting him do this.
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remember all the hurt he's caused you? self-mutilation of the mind is the worst kind of torture. You deserve better, your soul is telling you. Listen or be dragged down again and again. Trust me girl, if he ain't sober, you don't deserve his abuse. trust me on that onePosted 09-13-2009 at 07:30 PM by pinpoint
- I've been missing someone lately, missing the way he made me feel and who I THOUGHT he was.....making myself sad that he's no longer in my life....
and your message just woke me up.
Just wanted to say THANK YOU.Posted 09-14-2009 at 05:48 PM by Kittyboo -
I'm glad I helped someone out =)Quote:Originally Posted by Kittyboo
I've been missing someone lately, missing the way he made me feel and who I THOUGHT he was.....making myself sad that he's no longer in my life....
and your message just woke me up.
Just wanted to say THANK YOU.Posted 09-19-2009 at 08:19 PM by 28Days - Weeellll, in that moment you totally helped..
Then somehow I forgot about it.
lol
And decided that I had ALL of this pain and hurt that I had bottled up inside of me, and I wouldnt be able to get closure until I expressed it.
So I emailed it...aaaaand, then he blocked me from contacting him.
Part of me is glad I said it, the other part is so hurt that he could just erase me with no thought.
I hope that you are well!Posted 10-08-2009 at 06:57 PM by Kittyboo - Sounds like my guy....
You're like me. Fool yourself into thinking it's just for closure. It wasn't...it's just..contact...it's tough to cut it off.
But it shows you where you really stand.
Him and I are trying to repair friendship...but it's hard with this distance between us. But I'm not putting anything in it.Posted 10-24-2009 at 09:13 PM by 28Days - You are so right.
He decided to unblock me about 2 weeks later. I'm not sure why.
I haven't tried to contact him at this point, and he hasn't tried to contact me. I am assuming everything is "peachy" and he's getting all he wants with his ex wife.
I fantasize that he tries to contact me to repair our friendship, like it's some kind of sign that I was important to him. But at the same time there is SO much damage there... so much hurt that I am trying to forgive because it's healthy to let it go, but not forget. And forgiveness does not mean letting him back in my life, should he even feel it worth trying.
It is hard isn't it. I'm glad you aren't putting anything into it. I'm sure you are just drained, and when you're drained you can't put anything into it. I can also appreciate wanting to save the friendship. Friendship is meaningful, and I understand the value it has to you.
I feel the same, but looking back, my "friendship" with him was sooooo one sided. As soon as he didn't need emotional support from me anymore, he just didn't need me at all. I never felt that way.
I've started seeing a counselor to address everything going on with ME, no more trying to address everything going on with him.Posted 10-28-2009 at 07:28 PM by Kittyboo
