So how do I figure out if my cold feet are a symptom of a red flag waving somewhere in the inner psychy... or just a blip before a healthy transformation into a new life with the man I love?

I have to get this figured out. Its rather become critical at this point because I dont want to move into our new home and have these lingering questions.

And also.... Nick. The honesty policy that we share revealed my confusion to him, and now he feels guilty that I am lost...

I will trust Monday to be a no drinking day, oh alcohol that is, seltzer tastes great today, after my coffee! Slept better last night, was horribly tired yesterday from early wake up. Been trying to accomplish stuff I've put off. Then a bit of exercise, etc. Onward to 7 days.