What has been going on with Harley Runt.....

[harleyrunt]

I appolgize for my absence although I have been checking in just not responding. I knew I would have to tell you guys you are like a second family to me and one of the first that I notified when I found out I was expecting. Unfortunetly we are not expecting anymore. The surgery I had last year The Ileal Conduit Urostomy they gave me because of 16 years of Intersitial Cystitis tearing my bladder apart. We asked the surgeon if we could have children after the surgery and she assured us it would not be a problem. So in May I found out I was pregnant shortly after I was sick with kidney/urine infections. To make a long story short they sent me to a high risk doctor and we were told the pregnancy had to be medically terminated if not I would not make it more than 4 or maybe 5 months before the baby would grow and tear the stitching and the urostomy apart on the inside and it would end up probably killing both the baby and I of urine poisoning. So we did as the doctors instructed and had the termination done. I have not been dealing well with this. Right now I am just in hiding at my house. I don't go out but to get groceries or run small errands with my husband. I fear running into the people I know and have to tell them we are no longer expecting. So I hide and pray if I hide long enough word will spread through the two families and then I don't have to explain it to people face to face. I had to come here and tell you guys though, you have been so great to me and I appreciate it so much. I will be on but maybe just not saying a whole lot for a little bit. Just bear with me. Harley Runt and The Hubby.

[BillJ]

I'm so sorry, HR. Thank you for checking in with us, and know that you and The Hubby will be in my prayers.

[The_Hammer]

Originally Posted by harleyrunt

I appolgize for my absence although I have been checking in just not responding. I knew I would have to tell you guys you are like a second family to me and one of the first that I notified when I found out I was expecting. Unfortunetly we are not expecting anymore. The surgery I had last year The Ileal Conduit Urostomy they gave me because of 16 years of Intersitial Cystitis tearing my bladder apart. We asked the surgeon if we could have children after the surgery and she assured us it would not be a problem. So in May I found out I was pregnant shortly after I was sick with kidney/urine infections. To make a long story short they sent me to a high risk doctor and we were told the pregnancy had to be medically terminated if not I would not make it more than 4 or maybe 5 months before the baby would grow and tear the stitching and the urostomy apart on the inside and it would end up probably killing both the baby and I of urine poisoning. So we did as the doctors instructed and had the termination done. I have not been dealing well with this. Right now I am just in hiding at my house. I don't go out but to get groceries or run small errands with my husband. I fear running into the people I know and have to tell them we are no longer expecting. So I hide and pray if I hide long enough word will spread through the two families and then I don't have to explain it to people face to face. I had to come here and tell you guys though, you have been so great to me and I appreciate it so much. I will be on but maybe just not saying a whole lot for a little bit. Just bear with me. Harley Runt and The Hubby.

Regrets and prayer for you sister.

[Hurricane]

Sorry to hear that, You are in my prayers.

[toad]

I am praying for you and your husband, and I know that the rest of the group members of Bikers in Recovery are praying also........I know that this hurts. You will grow stronger each day. Thanks for considering us your friends..........we love you too.

[sticker]

my condolences for your lose HR...thats alot to deal with stay close to your H.P. and your recovery family. we dont have to deal with these things alone anymore..

[Jazzed_N_MD]

HR and Hubby, all He said was "not yet", He didn't say "no". This is how I see the event you have indured.

Do not fret the words and thoughts of man, ya'll got Him on yer side and I do mean you all. Neither of you are alone and because you are not alone, neither am I.

[recoveringnky]

Prayin' for ya HR! I've been in your shoes in sobriety...... it sucks, but you can make it through clean and sober... I did.

GREAT BIG HUGE HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kym

[chris k]

Sorry, I hope you feel better soon.

[Rarly Harley]

Originally Posted by harleyrunt

To make a long story short they sent me to a high risk doctor and we were told the pregnancy had to be medically terminated if not I would not make it more than 4 or maybe 5 months before the baby would grow and tear the stitching and the urostomy apart on the inside and it would end up probably killing both the baby and I of urine poisoning. So we did as the doctors instructed and had the termination done.

HR: You and your Husband will be in my prayers. Please know that you have nothing to be ashamed of. You did everything in your power to have this child, including reaching out for expert medical advice, just like it tells us to do in the Big Book. When the doctors instructed a termination, that was God talking to you also, you were at the God Line, where you did everything you possibly could, then surrendered to God's Will....A very powerfull reminder to all of us. We are all here for you. It is an honour to have you here, sharing your ES&H and your pain with us. And together we grow....